Daus Mendoza Teaches Trish Spanish, Gay Slang & the TRUTH About Working At McDonald's 02:29:18

Hey guys, welcome back to the Jeff Trish Podcast. Today I am so excited. I mean, I am like gagging for my guest today. The one and only TikTok influencer, beauty, makeup,

aficionado extraordinaire, and one of the most gorgeous people I've ever seen in real life, Daz Mendoza. Oh, wait, I just noticed there's all these cameras. I was like, whenever you were saying that, I was like, wait, what are you looking at? And I just noticed that one right there. I was like, oh. I'm impressionable. We have three cameras here today. No, we have like a full setup here. It's a full setup. I love that when you sat down, you're like, wait, because Moses was telling you how to like, the microphone, like don't tap this, whatever. And you're like, wait, is this a real microphone? I thought it was props. No, I seriously thought that you guys would have like a cameraman or something like doing the whole thing. And then, because I'm watching your podcast sometimes and you're just like, like,

Like, waving it around. Everyone, I'm just like, oh, okay, so it's a prop. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah. I'm actually the worst at holding my own microphone. I just thought they looked cool because, like, way before your time, we had this thing called TRL, like MTV, and they would, like, hold microphones. And I thought it was so cool, but it is... Oh, yeah. It's way more difficult now. I don't know. Like, it doesn't make sense for a podcast. Most people have the ones that you don't have to hold, but...

It feels like a talk show. I feel like this is fun, though, and it's unique. It's very, it's beautiful. It's different. It's different. It's old. No, I feel like not everybody's doing podcasts, but like, you know, yours is very unique. Not everyone has handheld microphones. And not everybody's room is this pink. Pink fuzzy. Yes, I love that you're a pink person all the way through. I love pink. Pink and red and white. Those are my favorite colors. Okay, pink and red go together. I was talking to Moses for Valentine's Day. I'm like, he said we will just do pink. I'm like, but red goes with pink. Yeah, it does. No, I love red and pink. Yeah, I think it has like a vibe that most people don't. People just want to do all pink all the time. It's very like lovey-dovey.

Yeah. I love the pink. Okay. I am so obsessed. You are definitely our youngest guest, which is crazy. You said we're like Taurus. We're the same. But we're also birthday twins. We were both born the same day. Oh my God. I forgot about that. No, we are. We are birthday twins. That's why I wanted

the podcast. I was like, wait, no, but we're actual birthday twins, which is like so crazy. That is so insane. I love eights. Eights are my favorite. I was born the 8th of May, 88. So it's like my favorite number. Were you born like in the morning or nighttime? I was born at 10 a.m. in the morning. How about you? Oh my God, 11. Oh my gosh. Were you on Mother's Day? No, I don't think so. I don't know. I'm not sure. It changes. Sometimes my birthdays land on Mother's Day and I

hate it because I'm like this is my day yeah I feel the same way and then people are like out of town like I'm with my mom today so they can't like celebrate birthdays literally one year I threw it when I was really young I threw this huge party okay like huge slide everything we rented out like this whole park nobody came because it was Mother's Day yeah it's kind of annoying I was so sad and I was a child so I was like just like crying and shit oh my god did anyone come

What? Really? Well, just my family. Okay, but no friends. Family, but like no friends from school. They had to be with their moms. They had to be with their moms. I was born on Mother's Day. It fell on a Sunday, but now it's kind of, now Mother's Day switches, so it's. Isn't it like the first Sunday of every. It changes. Or the first fifth of, I don't know how it works. I don't either. I think this year it was like May 14th, so I think it just switches all the time, but yeah, being a May baby is great though. So that's when I saw May 8th. I was like, ah, but you're May 8th, 2005, which is crazy. Literally when I started social media and MySpace. Really? My first MySpace page was 2005, which is crazy. You were like born then. You were like fresh.

Fresh out the womb. Wait, I wanted to talk about the first video I saw of you. Okay. So, okay. I was like a huge, still am, huge fan of Joy Graceffa, okay? Okay, love. And the first video I saw was, you guys were trying lollipops, but it was like the ice cream lollipops, different flavors. Oh yeah, oh my god. And I fell in love with you because you were just like,

Like slurping each and every one of them. And I was like, oh my God. I think this was like, I was like eight or 10. Oh my God. This is a long time ago. That video was like eight years old. I was looking at it the other day. Wow. That's insane. So at eight years old, your parents were like, you could let you on YouTube? Oh yeah. I had a huge iPad. Oh my gosh. And I would break it all the time and they would always buy me more. So.

That terrifies. Wait, why would you break your iPad all the time? I sit on it, break it, throw it. I don't know. Oh, okay. My cousins will come over. One time my cousin came over, sat on it, it broke. Oh my gosh. The screen would always break. And they're like, you can just buy a new one. Get a good parent. Well, no, no, not like that. Oh. No, not returns. The screen. Oh.

Oh, got it, got it, got it. The screen. Yeah, like they buy a new screen and they'll take it. But it'll be like after forever. Oh my God. I think I've had only two iPads growing up in my whole life. But it was like really hard to get, obviously. Yeah, I had no iPads growing up. I was the youngest. I'm the youngest out of two older brothers. So I always got one. How is that? The youngest child always gets whatever they want, is my opinion. We always talk about that. Because he's the oldest, I'm the middle. And I'm like, our baby siblings, they get so spoiled. I wonder why that is. I guess because you're the last.

I don't know. That is very weird. I feel like they'd love the first, right? Because... No, I think the first probably gets the worst. No, middle gets the worst. Because, like, the first is there for a minute. I feel like the first would be more mature because they're the ones that are, like, really taken care of. Like, really, you know what I mean? Yeah, totally. The middle, I don't know. They get ignored. I'm the middle child, literally. Oh, okay, yeah. Because my brother's the middle child and he's like... Yeah, ignored. Ignored. Yeah, like, he's... And you're the baby, so... He's falling off, yeah. Yeah.

to them are you close with them oh i'm close with the yeah well not the oldest because he's 27 he's very we're very far apart oh yeah that's a big age difference what was that like growing up um he was very much like a dad to me at some point you know what i mean so he would really take care of me and my other brother a lot okay um and then the other one the middle one we're closer he's 21 he just recently turned 21 so we're only three years apart we were close to a certain point super close as kids but then he got to high school and you know

You know how we are, you know, so. Like, just as brothers. Parties, parties. Like, no, he started going to parties and doing, like, all the older kids stuff. I didn't want you around. So, I fell back because I was still, I think, like, in either my first year of middle school or still in elementary, so. Are you guys similar or very different? I guess all is different. Very, very, very different. They're actually way closer now than we ever were. Oh, yeah.

Oh, really? Yeah. Oh, interesting. Why is that? You think just- I went my own way. Makeup, beauty. What do they think of it? I mean, I'm the only gay one. Oh, okay. They love it, honestly. Yeah. I think they were very supportive. I love that. My family, when I say family, I mean little family. Like my mom and my two brothers are always very supportive of me.

That's your core family that you grew up with. Core family. Okay. Grew up with, yeah. Obviously, I'm Mexican, so I have a huge family. Right. But they were very supportive of me all the time. What about your extended family then? The tíos. Yeah. They were very... Oh my God, wait. I saw that. You've been learning Spanish. I love that you know that. Yes. That's okay. That's why I love you because you do Get Ready With Me in Spanish. Yeah. Did you understand it? Yeah.

Kind of. Okay, so when I get glam in the morning, I like to learn Spanish and stuff. Because we've been listening to it. I'm in my Latin music era right now. So I listen to it, but I don't know what it means. So I'm like, I want to learn Spanish. So we always do Spanish lessons. And then I watch her get ready with me. And I'll look at your things. And you'll say words here and there because you'll speak English. So then I kind of get it. So you'll say, oh, I went to prom with my Brian Hearns outfit and had black botas. And I was like, okay, is botas like shoes, trunkers? Like, I don't know. So you know chisme? Chisme. Oh, yeah. I learned that. Do you know what I mean when I say pachanga?

No, I don't know what that is. It's slang. It's not. Patanga. Yeah, patanga. What does it mean? It's honestly not even a real word. Me and my friends all kind of just started saying it. Oh, you made it up. It's not even Spanish. Yeah, we made it up. But no, yeah, you won't find it in any book. We just say that. Okay.

Okay. I love slaying. It's like slaying. Like, well, the freak came up with slay. So how would you say it? How would you use pachanga? Pachanga. Oh, like, I'm about to go to this pachanga. But pachanga is, like, a good party. Okay. Huge party. It's not just like, oh, a party. No, it's a pachanga. Like, it's a party. I love when you speak, when you do the mix of it. It's so cool. When you, like, throw it in there. I think it's, like,

so cute. So I love the get ready with me in Spanish. I feel like a lot of people do it. I'm going to do one one day. Like, once I really, like, know it, I'm going to do a Spanish get ready with me. I'm going to do a lot of cuts, but I just love, I love learning languages. How many languages do you know? Oh, I mean, I've learned, like, I take

I've taken classes in like four different languages. I learned a little Korean, a little Hebrew. I started to try to do Japanese, which is very difficult, but never Spanish, which I think is the closest to English. So I was like, this is what I need to learn because I just, I love the music and stuff like that. I want to learn French because I feel like that's a really pretty. Oh yeah. I feel like it's close to like Spanish and. It is, I think. French would be cute. Yeah. That would be cute. Did you grow up speaking Spanish? That was my first language. Yes. But since obviously I went to school like here, so it kind of just.

Over time, you know, I got less, like more and more worse at Spanish. So I'm kind of like. How are you now? I'm good. I understand it perfectly. Yeah. When I talk it though, you know, it's like people will be like, oh, that's, you know. Okay. That's cute. I love hearing it. I love when people speak it. And so I just say it's such a cool language. I just love it so much. I'm trying to think of the word that they call us. They'll say you're like. Nozabo. Nozabo. Oh my God. Yes.

NoSable, you know it. Every time I do a Swedish TikTok, it'll be like other people like doing the sound and they'll be like when you're NoSable kid. They'll call me a NoSable kid sometimes. Yeah. I don't know what it means. I just always see that. It just means... I don't... It's so stupid.

It's because there was one time a viral video that went viral with this boy speaking Spanish and he said, no sabo, but that's not the right way to say it. Oh, so they just ran with it. I'm not even going to try to say it because they're going to be like, no, yeah. Well, don't lose it. The get ready with me in Spanish is my favorite. Oh, no, of course. Yeah, always do it. Okay, so you grew up with your two brothers and your mom and you grew up in Fountain Valley. Is that central?

I was born in Fountain Valley. Okay. Oh, you saw it online. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was born in Fountain Valley, but I grew up in the valley. In this valley? Yeah, it's a little town called Visalia. Oh, that's central California. I've been there. Oh, you've been there? It's such a beautiful town. It's so small and cute. You don't like it? Oh, because it's small. It's a village, is what it is. There's crops everywhere. Oh, wait.

The mall has 12 stores in it. Like, no, there's nothing. The airport's cute though. It's like a little like forest. There's like a tree in the middle of the airport. The airport? Yeah. Oh, you went down there. Yeah. Okay, that's the prettier side. Okay, okay. Yeah, I thought it was Gorge. I was like living for it. I think you were more in like Fresno area. It was definitely

Vestalia. I remember Vestalia. Yeah. Yeah. But it was, maybe, maybe it was more like town oriented or whatever, but you did not like it. You didn't love it. And you went to school there? I went to school there. I literally grew up there. I think that's why I hated it so much because I literally grew up there and it was just so annoying. Oh, I get it. Everybody looks the same. All the guys, all five, eight. Oh, right. You're really tall. You don't like being tall. I'm really tall. So you can just imagine, like I was just the tallest in my village. In the village. I love that you call it that.

it's a village. It literally is a village, right? Because why? What makes it a village? I think it makes it a village because one, there's nothing to do. Two, there's crops everywhere. Like everywhere. People say whenever I say village, they think it's like hay, like roofs and things like that. But no, I just say because there's crops everywhere. And in villages, there's crops, right? It's like a farm town. Yeah, it's like a farm town. It is a farm town. It's literally a farm town. Village is cute. It's cute. Yeah, I love it. I'm not going to say my farm. Like, yeah. Okay, I like the little village. And so, how

Did you grow this height? When did you stop growing? Because you're how tall? I think just recently I stopped growing. I'm 6'2". 6'1", no shoes on. Okay. Right now, 6'2". Wow. And you're like, I don't like being tall. Everyone wants a tall person in their life. When I said that, okay, I love being tall. I love looking in the mirror, seeing how tall I am, seeing videos of me how tall I am. You know, me personally, I love being tall. But when it comes to guys, I hate it. Because you'd find someone taller than you. I want somebody huge. There's those people out there. I want somebody that can just pick me up. Oh, I know there is. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But it's not me.

It's so hard to find. I know. It is. It's really hard. You need like a 6'5". No, that's one of them. There's a TikToker. Do you know Leo Skeppy? He's like 6'5". In his bio, he has 6'7". Oh. I don't know. Maybe he's 6'7". I haven't met him yet. He's not that tall. Oh, okay. You met him in person? Mm-hmm. Okay. He's not that tall. Was it just casual or just like a TikTok thing? No, it was just casual. Okay. I think it was at What's-His-Face's party. The guy that... What's his name?

He's like in Charlie DeMillo's group and stuff like that. And he's tall? No, it's just this guy. But it was his birthday party. Noah Beck. I don't know. I don't know anybody. But one of those. And it was his birthday party. And that's whenever I saw Leo Scafia. Oh, okay. And I was like...

six seven right and then was he taller than you an inch taller than me yeah he really wasn't at all okay interesting the tea do you put on your like dating app like must be over i'm not really on dating apps no okay i do have um what's that one that raya oh you're on it yeah it's so boring though i've never been able to get on it how did you get on it yeah it's like all famous people right no oh really wait what is it we can go through it for like a while oh my god that's the whole

podcast is going through your work. Yeah, let's see. Do you have like, is there like famous people on there? Um, um,

A student at USC. That is not a famous person. First of all, I kind of love dating. I love going through people's dating apps. It's not going to load because it's dinner, but a student at USC, that is not a famous person. Oh, man. And it'll say things like managers and things like that. I really thought it was going to be like singers, like artists. Like Zac Efron. Yeah. Things like that. You always heard about that. I think Hilary Duff was on it at one point. John Mayer's on it. Yeah, but no, it's not. You never see those. Maybe because it's like oversaturated now. Also on the gay side, so. Oh.

How does that work? Do you push like, I'm gay? Well, yeah. They push the I'm gay people to me. Wait, really? Okay. You know, but sometimes I go on Tinder and I go as I'm a girl and I'll get all the DLs. I used to see that. But I do that for fun, okay? I don't actually do anything with them because I don't do DLs ever. I've had a bad experience. What's a DL? A down low.

Like a guy that's like not out yet. Oh. He like lives for like the gay boys, but he's not out. Oh, interesting. So we call them DLs, downloaders. Do they have an app for them? No. Really? Because they should. Because there's probably so many people. But they'll download the apps and try to get with us. They'll DL the DLs. They'll download. They'll DL us.

Oh, I see. Down low. Like, hey, let's do stuff on the low. And you just said they're down low to the apps. Yeah, like, no, no, no. They're down low with us. Did he even say down low to the apps? Well, they're, okay, we call them DLs because they'll come to us and they'll want to do things, but they're straight. Okay. And they'll be like on the low though. So that's why we say the DLs. Oh, I never heard that before. The down lows. Okay. Because they're always saying on the low, like don't tell no one.

Oh, really? Like, don't tell nobody we just did that. Or don't tell them that. Is it because they, like, are scared? Like, they can't come out? Like, their family's religious? I don't know what goes through their brains. Yeah. I don't know if it's because they're scared. It could be because of their families. They don't want to come out. But I feel like we're in a society where, like, nobody really gives a crap. Are they older? Because sometimes the older ones, I think. I only go for older guys, so. Yeah, so that's why. Because I used to, yeah, that's my generation. They, like, didn't want to come out either. There would be so many people. There's so many people I know to this day that still don't come out that tell me they date girls. And I'm just like, oh.

you know I feel like this new generation is better at it oh yeah because I feel like now it's like it's like it's almost trendy to be gay I feel like there's people who want to be gay that aren't you know what I mean no it literally is which is great like don't literally catfish and pretend like they're just for views and it's like please what do you think about that

It's so annoying and weird. Yeah. It's like a breeding culture. And then they'll like go online and be like, you guys, I'm not gay. But then it's like, then why are you doing that with your friend? Like, why are you pretending like you're about to kiss your friend then? But maybe they are and it's like their defense of being like, no, I'm not. You know what I mean? Yeah, for sure. I know all the teen now. Now that I'm out here. Yeah. Oh my gosh. That's why. So you like only older guys, but you're 18. So you got to be like, don't go too much older. You know me. I'm very protective of people. No, I love.

older guys. Oh no, you're like me. We have so much in common actually when I was like Googling stuff. I was just like, oh my God, we have a lot of similarities. I actually get icked out by a guy that's like younger. Like I can't do 18, 19. I have to do like 22 and over. Okay. Well, maybe do like 22. No, I really like older guys. Okay, I get you. Okay, but 20 bare minimum. Okay, that's cute. I feel like once it's like over 30 and stuff like that,

like that. I just like, I was the same way. I was 18 dating like 50 year olds. Period. No, yes, I live. As long as they're hot. But then I regret it. Then I'm like, oh, you know, then I feel like they play games with you. I don't know. You just gotta be. I feel like they would be more mature though, right? You would think. That's the only reason I like older guys now because I feel like they're more mature. You know, maybe, but I don't know. Sometimes I'm always like, you're so young and you do come across older. I will say that. Like being here with you. Everybody thinks I'm way,

Older. Right away. The way you talk. The way you like introduce yourself. Like you're just very. I'm like oh my gosh. I forget that you're actually 18. So I feel like. That is. And there are people who like that. You know what I mean. But also. Like you are 18. You're so young. So I'm always just like.

with an 18 year old? I want to stay young forever though. I wish I could stay 18 forever. Me too. It does. Aging. I'm scared of getting old. It's hard. It is hard. I think once you get to like a certain age, like 35, you're like, okay, I'm just old. This is what it is. But yeah. But 35 is, you're 35? I'm 35. But that's so young. No, it's very old. You're 18. Okay. I feel old is when you start seeing wrinkles and like crazy things like that. That's true. Got the Botox. Yeah. So if you think you're old, then you're old. But I personally think like. I like that. Yeah.

Yeah, there's a lot of people who won't say their age because if you say it, then you're that age. Then you're that age, yeah. So, all right. So I'm scared of one day seeing like, oh crap, like wrinkles. Like I'm getting old. That's what I'm scared of. Well, you have a very long time. And you probably will never because you'll do the Botox and you'll do all that. Oh yeah, and plus I'm so young that there's all new shit coming out. Oh, okay.

Oh, yeah. Like when you're 35. There will probably be like lasers that will like boom, you're 21 again. Yeah. No, your skin is flawless. Your face is flawless. Everything is flawless. Everything. Do you work out? Do you have like a workout routine? I do work out and people are always asking for my workout routine, but it's like they ask me that because of my tiny waist. But I'm like, you guys, when I work out, I go for my legs. Oh, okay. My thighs and my butt. Yeah, they look great. So your waist is so nice. How do you do it? Do you do cinchers? No, I used to for a while when I was like 15, 16.

Oh my gosh. That's wild. I bought like this little corset from Amazon. I would wear it to sleep. And it worked? Oh, to sleep. Well, I stopped. Okay. Because were you like having trouble breathing? No, I just stopped. I was like, okay, this is not healthy. You don't need it anymore. It looks great. I think it like permanently. But now I get waist trainers sent to me and I'll wear it when I want to look skinny. Oh, underneath your clothes. No, not underneath. I will just wear it around the house. Just so I can like stare at myself in the mirror and be like, ooh.

I love that. And I'll take photos in it and then post it and be like, okay, take this shit off. Oh my gosh. Like that kind of vibe, you know? Yeah. Do you think it works? Do you think those work? Because I've used them a couple times. I've seen a lot of people, I think they work. I think they could. Yeah. But you're like just young so naturally your body's just going to be like that. That's what I thought too. Like maybe because I wore one when I was 15, my body kind of like

Just started going that direction. I don't know. Yeah. Because I also see they put fruit in like plastic little containers and it forms into that. Have you seen that? No. Where like the fruit is like really small and it's like growing. So they put it into like a plastic container that's like shaped into like a pumpkin. Oh. And then it'll grow super big. And then once they take off like the frame of it, it's like a literal pumpkin looking watermelon. Oh my God. That's so cute. Where do you see this on TikTok? You're so smart. You see everything. Yeah. You know the DLs, the pumpkin fruit. I feel like you didn't know the DLs. I'm really so in shock that you didn't know about them. Like I know about them. I guess I didn't know they were called DLs. Like.

On the DLs. On the low. I guess I made me part of it before. You've heard of trade, right? No. Oh my God. Trade. Trade. Okay. So trade. Oh, I'm outing all the, the gay code. Okay. Trade is what we call the guys that look super straight. Okay. But they're not. Okay. Well, who looks straight? What's like a straight looking person? Like a straight passing man. Like, okay. If somebody says they're gay and you're like, no way. That's a straight passing man. I feel like I say the same thing about everyone. Someone's like, oh, he's gay. I'm like, no, he's not. Well, you look at me and you're like.

Yeah, exactly. Okay, so we call those guys like, we say, oh, that's your trade. Okay.

Okay. I love that. Oh, that trade over there is cute. That's how we say it. Okay. That's cute. So it's kind of like fish and stuff like that. Fish is like. Fish. Exactly. Yeah. Fish. Like while you're so fish. Yeah. I'm kind of fishy. I feel. No, you are very fishy. Trish like fish. No, yes. So it's like, yeah. So we'll say like trade. Trade. I love that. Do you say that on the apps or in real life? Like would you vocally say that? Everywhere. All the time. Okay. But you don't go on apps like the dating apps like Grindr and stuff. No, I stopped.

When I want attention, I will. But then I get grossed out because then it's like ugly old men that come. I love you love old men. No, it's ugly old men. Oh, okay, okay. Yeah, not hot old men, okay? Yeah. Wow. And I put in my bio, like, if you're ugly, like, please. Do you use that? Yeah. That's smart. You should tell them. You should be a friend. No, they still come in hot, real hot. Yeah.

I like downloaded Tinder like last month and I already have like a thousand likes or something. I'm like, I'm not even, that's too much. I'm not going to go through that. I'm like, I'm going to give it to my sister and she can go through it. Do you? Yeah, I love going through it. Yeah, apps are my favorite. Like that's like, I don't miss it, but I miss going through it. Like it's kind of fun. They're fun for a while. I'll be bored and I'll be like, let's see who's cute. But then I get too bored and I'm like, okay, I'm done.

Yeah. Do anyone think you're a catfish ever? I've never been told that. I mean, am I a catfish? No. You look like someone who wouldn't be on those apps. Like you look like a celebrity. So that's what I'm saying. Like, are they ever like, wait, is this actually you in the photo? Well, they do this thing now where like they give you a blue checkmark. But in order to like get that blue checkmark to verify you, you have to like the app makes you like take videos and photos of yourself to verify that's you in those photos. So when you're scrolling through the app and stuff like Tinder or whatever, then if they don't have a blue checkmark on their thing, then it's like, oops.

They didn't verify themselves. Yeah, they didn't verify themselves. So that might be a catchphrase. So someone can't just use photos of you. Yeah, no, they can't. Oh. But there is photos of me on those apps and it's not a blue checkmark and that's not me. Have you met up with people from there?

from there? No, I'm not that kind of girl. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, no, no. I'm too scared of that. That's what I'm saying. Sometimes if I find a really hot guy, I'll be like texting them and then just for fun, but then they'll be like, let's meet up and I'll block them. I'm like, just kidding. Oh my God. I was literally just bored. I was like, joke. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, that's good. I don't think I can do meetups. No. Yeah, it is scary. That part of the world is terrifying. Or like coming into my home or me going into theirs. It's scary. I don't know. Oh, yeah. I used to do that all the time and I always think like, that was probably so dumb, but I guess people do it, but you're smart not to. I know a lot of people that do it and it's just, it's cool.

Yeah. Like a new guy every day and it's like, oh my God. There was, yeah, there was a horse, there was like girls in like downtown LA. It was like a string of them that were getting like unalived by people they met. Yeah. Here in downtown LA? Yeah, it was like downtown LA. It was like two girls in a row. Yeah, and it was like, so I hear those stories. I'm such like a paranoid person so when I hear stuff like that, I was like, oh my God, don't go on the dating apps and stuff. But I mean, the chance of that happening is low. But I saw one of your takes

one of your tiktoks that you're like not about dating you're like i'm about the money now i'm not about dating i gotta get my hugs off oh my god you really deezed out wow um yeah i say that because i'm pissed off at a guy so then i'll go on there and i'll rant and the reason it does because they love it and there's a lot of people out there that are feeling like that too yeah that's true the relatableness yeah i'm really trying like i don't know guys are really annoying like they will just like play around like sometimes i'll really fall in love with a guy and it's just like

Well, because you're dating the older ones. You've got to date, like, 20-year-olds. No, no, no, no. Obviously, yeah, 20-year-olds. Because my issue was I always would date people in their 50s and you think they're serious and, like, I want to marry you and all this stuff like that. And then it's, like, they waste four years of your life and you're, like, why did you stream? Well, also, you're like that, too. You'll meet a guy and you're, like, oh, my God, I want to, like, marry you already. Oh, wait, right, wait. Okay, that's how I am. Well, Taurus energy. And it'll just waste my time. Yeah, and that's what's annoying. That's so annoying. And, again, I would go for older guys because I thought, oh, that's what, like, I want. And that's why I go on those apps and I'm, like, hey, guys, I'm going to just go chase my bag. I'm done with guys. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's the way you've got to be. To me, they're a distraction.

Yeah. It's like, oh, like, I got ready to meet up with you when I could have been filming three videos right now. Well, you could do it at the same time while you're getting ready to meet up with them. You do a video talking about going out on a date because that's your job. No, I don't like doing that. Wait, you don't? I thought you do.

How'd you do? Like, get ready. I feel like my persona online is not a dating person. That's true. You're very much like, this is how I'm doing my makeup. What do you call it? Very much. Douse glam. You're like, this is my makeup. But like, even though I feel like Douse Middles Online is very like hot girl summer. Like he's not, he's always in hot girl summer. Right, right. What's the real Douse? I can't see him like making boyfriend videos. Like the, ew.

Wait, really? Yeah. I feel like he totally could. Who's you douse? The boyfriend douse? Like, what's the difference between you and the douse online? Oh, they'll never see boyfriend douse. Really? Yeah. Why? They'll just be me and him and that's it on the sidelines. Oh my gosh. You're going to keep everything private? Yeah, I think so. Okay. I think that's like the number one thing I'll always keep private boyfriend stuff. Just because they ruin it. Yeah. I've seen so many relationships be ruined. It's like, okay, I can barely even get a guy now. Imagine when I do get one and then I put it online and then it gets ruined right away. I don't want that. It'll always happen. And they'll like harass him nonstop.

It happens to every single relationship. Or like if he does something bad, I don't want them going after him or, you know. That's when they research everything. Or I do something bad on accident and then they come after me. It's like, let me just not. No, you're unproblematic. That's what we talked about. I'm like, you, when I was like, again, I do these deep dives and I'm like, there was not one hate comment, hate Reddit, nothing, which is like wonderful. And you were like. I keep the shit talking in the car with my friends. So smart. You're 18 and you get it. And I wish I learned that 18 years ago because I'm like, here I am 35 still. No, I loved it. That's what brought you today. You're iconic. Yeah.

Everything. You're very smart. I think it's because you're very honest. I'm very honest, too. I just, not online. You keep it, yeah. I keep it real cute. You keep it cute. I love that. Because I feel like that's where people get in trouble. And you're like, my comments are just, oh, you're pretty. You're skinny. You're like, well, I want to hear something else. I was like, how awful. Just to get pretty skinny comments. I love it. So what's a normal comment section? You scroll through. What's it look like? You're pretty. You're skinny. Wow. Oh, my God. Your waist. Body goals. Yes. Da, da, da.

Or something we'll be like, live, laugh, laugh, douse. I love those. I want to get that on my wall. Live, laugh, laugh, douse. Very millennial. Live, laugh, douse. I love douse. Favorite influencer. I'm so obsessed with you. Things like that. Is douse your real name? I love it. Yeah. What does it mean something? I think it means either God or Jesus. Really? Oh, you know? You know. How do you know that? Oh my God. Finally, somebody that knows. Did you not know? No, I knew. But every time I tell somebody, they're like, oh, what language? And I'm like. What language is it? Spanish? Yeah.

Oh, okay. But it's like not Mexican Spanish. It's like different. Spanish, Spanish. Okay. You know how there's like different kind of Spanish? Yes. I think there's like Spain Spanish and then there's like. Right. There's so many kinds. Yeah. Yeah. That's always confusing to me because they always like, okay, this is. My mom said she heard it in a Spanish movie and then I think it was spelled differently though. I think it was spelled D-O-U-S. Okay. In your D-A. But she said it was pronounced the same. But yeah, she said like when she was in the hospital bed, she was like, oh shit, like how do you spell it? So she kind of just sounded it out. It's

such a cool name it's such a memorable name I first found you I found you recently actually um through my makeup one of my makeup artists Damien Damien yeah he was talking about you and I was like the name sounds so cool and I like I had seen you but I hadn't like followed you yet and I was just like oh it's such a cool name and it's like they just remember it you know so you like go and you find it because I just knew it and I was like oh yeah I'll

I kind of love it. I love the whole thing because your whole vibe. And I was just like, yeah. Because I follow... I told you this before we started. I don't follow any... I've never followed beauty influencers. None. Just because I'm not good at my own makeup. I just never. But you... You always do glam, right? All the time. I always do glam, yeah. Well, for like this. I mean, in my day-to-day life, I never wear makeup. I look a little bit like a troll. But...

I never really followed, but there is just something. I just love your online persona because even your get ready with me, they're just fun. I don't know. They're not like, even though some of them are tutorial-esque, like they're just like fun. I try to give them variety. You know what I mean? Like I try to do like the very, like the reviews and then the tutorials are very more like, like in your face, like screaming, like this new product. Yeah. And then I try to keep it to like where my get ready with me's are more me. Like more like, I just woke up. They don't need more me. You know? Yeah. I love it. Storytime kind of like vibes. With your cat and stuff like that.

Yeah. What's your cat's name? I have the white one. His name is Phantom. He's a year old. And then I just got a new one. It's a girl and her name is Persephone. Is it like the Greek mythology Persephone? Is that why? Or is it different? Everybody was saying that, but I was thinking of Monster High. Do you know Monster High? Oh my God.

be my monster high lately i didn't know these were such icons no they're iconic i love them there's these two twins and monster high one of them's persephone the other one's meality and the girl persephone one is she's gray she has like these white stripes and i was like my cat has she's great okay persephone and plus the second i picked her up she started purring so i was like this is perfect is it like her stephanie okay you are our stephanie i love it i love the meaning behind it and also i have a dog named prada so all three of their names are peas oh

that's cute. So PH for phantom and then Persephone and then Prada. Oh my God, that's so cute. I love it. I'm like a real like dad. I know. Do you take care of them all by yourself? My dogs. I left them at home. My dog. Yeah. That was too much. To spring here. In an apartment. No, I couldn't. Animals in general are very difficult. I know.

I can never take care of that. They're so hard. Moving here was so overwhelming. And then having a dog on top of that, I couldn't. I sent him back home with my mom. I was like, please take care of him. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Well, that's good. That's when they get to fresh start. When did you move? You moved here at 18 because I saw your vlog of moving here. Okay, so I turned 18 May 8th and then graduated school June 2nd and then moved to LA June 12th.

It was like very back to back. I love it. That's what I did. I did the same thing. I flew out the day of my graduation. I flew out like May 20th. Really? I wanted to do that. Yeah. I was like bye. I didn't go to my graduation party. I was like bye. I didn't care. Oh I almost didn't. No I was so over it already by that time. I relate to you in that way like the small town. I really I've never been back since graduation. I was just like I'm over it. It's so crazy because like I remember in middle school even freshman year up until like my junior year I was like

I knew what I wanted to do. I knew I wanted to live in LA, but I was like, how am I going to leave my friends? How am I going to leave my family? You know what I mean? Right. Once I got to like senior year, I'm like, I'm so over everybody. I want to get out of here. What was it just in general? Just as too small for you? Just in general. Yeah. Yeah. Because you were popular. You were homecoming king. Oh, yeah. I was also homecoming queen. Oh my God. That means you were popular. Yeah.

I mean, I guess. You're like, I wanted to leave even though everyone loved me. I wasn't just popular because of social media, okay? I was always popular. Okay. Honestly, like, let's be honest. I was always popular in middle school.

I was very popular too just because I was my fashion. I would wear fur coats to school. And they loved it. They lived for it, honestly. They all knew me. I was like one out of two gay boys in that school, in my middle school. I got to freshman year and I honestly, my first week at freshman year, I kind of like broke down a little bit because I was like,

Nobody knows who I am. Like in middle school, I was so popular. And then I got to high school and it's way bigger. So I literally cried on the bathroom floor and I was like, nobody knows who I am. Like I'm not popular anymore. Oh my gosh. Give it a month or two. I'm popular again. But it's still on your village. Middle school is the village and high school is the village. Yeah. So elementary, middle school, high school. I think my village has three high schools. So it's not that tiny. Okay.

But yeah, three high schools. And then all the other high schools are like more towns over. Okay. And so then when you got to high school, you won people over with your fashion and personality and all that. That's amazing. I love that. I love that like being different was like celebrate. I feel like when I was in school, like being different, like people like hated you. Like I wore something crazy. They're like, ugh. Wasn't the best thing ever. Like the girls lived for it. Yeah. There's some guys that didn't. But I really didn't care. Yeah.

I really didn't. In general, do you care what people think about you? I really don't. Lately, I have a little bit. Wait, really? Like what? Because like people don't hate on you. So what is it? Like for example, I want a nose job. And I told them, I was on live one night. There was only 200 people in my life. It was like 3 a.m. in the morning. And I told them, I was like, you guys, I want to get a nose job. And everybody was like, no, no, no, no, no, don't. And I was like, okay. And that's like the only time I actually cared. Like things like that. It's like, okay. Oh, but that's like such a nice thing. They're telling you like your nose is great. Yeah, but it's like, I guess. What do you want people to say? Like, yes, fix that. Fix that. Like nose. That's true. You know what I mean? Okay.

Okay, maybe you're right. It is perfect in real life. Like it is a perfect nose. No, yeah, I really don't care what people say, honestly. Okay, so sometimes like- I will probably for like two seconds, but then I'm like over it. That's amazing. I wonder what your other signs are. Do you know your moon signs or anything? I know my rising is Leo. Okay, that makes sense. So Taurus, sun, rising, Leo, and then I know I have like another Taurus somewhere in there. I think moon. Okay. Yeah, I think my moon is in Taurus too. Yeah, okay, interesting. And then I have another Leo and then a Scorpio somewhere in there.

Oh, wow. I don't know like what moons, what planets. Yeah. All those I don't know either. Yeah. But I see them. Yeah. I know they're in there. Because that's very different than me. I like hear so much what people think and I'm just like, God, I wish I could be that. Are you a Snapchat girlie? Absolutely.

everyone keeps telling me to snapchat like wait why because on snapchat it tells you there's like this new thing on snapchat so that's why i'm saying i know because it will like say like you're a tourist and then you swipe and then it shows you all the planets and like it gives you like an explanation of like what you are like or what that sign is so that's why i'm saying like i know one of them's a tourist next one over is like rising a leo wow and after that i think it's another tourist and then a scorpio i don't know i don't know so advanced no they are advanced there's so much yeah are you getting paid on there wait you wait you track people yeah there's like snap maps and then you can see where all your friends are

If they let you see them. There's like an option. That sounds terrifying. Well, there's an option. I only have it on for three of my friends. Why? Two of them are here. Okay. So you know where they're at. But why? Why do you need to know where they're at? I don't care about where they're at, but they love tracking us. Just for fun? They love tracking each other. Yes.

Really? So you just like. A lot of. You're going to see the comments. A lot of people like keeping tabs on each other. That's wild. There's a whole app just to track your friends. Like your whole friend group can go into that app and you can create groups in that app. I don't know what that app is called. Oh my God. I would not want. What is it called? Live 360. And they just track each other. Oh. I never understood it. I guess these bitches have nothing better to do than to. Oh yeah. Watch where their friends are going. I would never do it because I just lie all the time. Oh.

I'm at the grocery store. They would just see me in my house. That's how they get caught up. Oh, shoot. No, that's not for me. Even us, we never track each other. They say for safety, but I'm just like, to be tracked ever. Oh, my mom has my tracking all the time. And my brother. I guess that's good. Just because I'm over here. Everyone tells me she'll be seeing when I leave home and stuff like that. She's like, hey, I see you. Not texting me. She's not like that. But I'll go back home and then she'll be like, hey, where were you this day? I'll tell her, hey, I was doing this and that. And she was like, I saw you left your house. And I was like, oh. You left your house at 1 a.m.?

Yeah, I forget that I have my tracker on for her. I don't really care. My mom is super sweet, super nice. She's open. You saw me get rid of these. I was going out at like 16 to every single party. Yeah, so she's a very just chill. She trusts me a lot. Well, she sees how mature I am. You never ran into trouble as a kid? Oh, of course. Elementary school, I was the worst. Wait, what? In elementary, what are you doing? I was a troublemaker. Oh. I had to literally. Doing what? I was such a.

At an elementary school? I would bully the kids. Not going to lie. But you know why? There's a whole thing behind it. Okay. I would bully the kids because for a while I got bullied. And then I was like, okay, well, the only reason to not be the bully is to be the bully. Right. They do say that. Right. The only reason to not be bullied is to be the bully. Right. That's how you get out of it. I was bullied first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, even into middle school. I was the bully.

Okay. So you switch. What year did you switch? You were bullied. And then what age are you switching to be? First, second, I was bullied. And then third, I was like, you know what? I'm going to start bullying these bitches. I would make the sixth graders cry. And I was like in fourth grade. Wow. What would you say to them? No, I guess.

online. Wait, was it like me? Okay, I'll say a few. Just remember this is not me anymore. Okay, I'll say a few. One time there was a skinny girl. Super skinny. Okay. Very skinny. I love, right? Now we love it, but back then, I don't know. She told me something and I was like, you're so skinny. And I was just like, pencil legs, twig, like in her face, like telling her. I'd be like, thank you. I know, now I'd be like, thank you, but back then, she started crying. Oh, she did? Yeah. Oh. Did you feel bad or no? You're just like, whatever. Did she bully you? No.

She told me something, then I told her something bad. What'd she tell you? I don't remember. Oh. I blocked those bad memories out. I don't remember what people tell me. Okay, I love it. And then one time, we were during PE, and I made this kid cry in front of everyone. Oh my God. Oh my God. I don't know why. I just wanted to pick at him. I was bored. So I was like, did you just shit your pants? You just shit your pants. Everybody, oh my God, he just shit his pants. Oh my God. And I swear, I will go up into the face. I'm like, you just shit your pants. You smell. Oh my God. Yeah.

But just imagine me like this tall, the other kid like that tall, and me just like, you just shit your pants. Where did you get the confidence? Clearly from that, bullying kids. That's amazing. Wow, that's crazy. Even back then, I'd be so scared to say that to anyone. You remember? Oh, okay, so it got to the point where I was even such a troublemaker in class. Stupid.

Okay. Like I would throw pencils. I would like one time I broke a pen out of a pen. The ink came out and we were all working on like this work and I splashed on this girl's work. Why? Just for the. Oh my God. Did you ever get charismatic energy back at you after all this? I mean. Wow. Oh my God. I'm here now. That always happens though. Sometimes I think it just doesn't. Oh, I guess you were young. I would pray to God at night to forgive me though. You would. You would.

I would. Okay. And did you mean it? Sometimes I would really cry and I'd be like, God, why am I like this? Why am I such a bully? Oh my God. But I think it truly was to protect myself because I was getting bullied a lot. Okay. So. Did you ever write them a letter now and be like, hey, I called you pencil legs? Maybe you should. Sorry, pencil legs and Visalia. It's a great thing now. No.

we all want that i wonder if they remember it i wonder i'm sure they do not everyone lets it go i remember my bullies when i was a kid i remember all of them oh my god one time i got into really really really big trouble like almost suspended because this girl was like telling me something and these like tables again elementary school okay oh my god i don't know how i even knew this my culture oh my gosh yeah no that's bad right i don't know to

To me it's like I don't know I don't know but I think there are like worse things You could probably call someone I called her a bitch And I called her white trash She told me something though She told me something really mean But you don't remember I don't remember Okay so it didn't affect you that much I don't think white trash is I don't know To me I'm like well That's just what I You know that's just what you are Not me But I feel like it's

I don't know. Maybe it is drug-tory. I don't know. I don't know, but I got so much in trouble. But actually, the principal at that school, like, really respected my mom. Like, I don't know. Oh. Like I said, you know, I didn't grow up rich or anything. Yeah. So, and my principal knew... Well, all my two older brothers went to that same school, too. Okay. So, the principal knew, like...

All of us, you know? Okay. And they were like... My oldest and then the middle and then me, you know? So she cut me a lot of slack. Okay. And my mom would tell her all the things that are going on at home. Oh. So she cut me a lot of slack. What was going on at home? Well, a lot of things with like my dad and stuff like that. He was never a really nice guy. Okay. But so your dad was also living with you? He was. It was very like off and on with him and my mom. There was like so many...

Um, he was in like Mexico because he wasn't born here. Okay. He was in Mexico. And then he came into my family. I mean, he came back into my life when I was like, I don't remember ages. I go by the grades that I'm in. Right. Yeah. I totally feel the same. So, okay. I think in like, uh, third grade he was in my life, left, fourth grade I was good. And then he came back fifth, sixth. Hmm.

seventh, eighth, and then freshman year also, and then left sophomore. But that year we left the household. Oh, we were just fed up with it. So you're like, he stayed there and you're like, we're gone. she was done. But obviously between all this time, it was always off and on my mom and him. It was always fighting and things like that. Like really bad fighting. Like just really loud. And you heard it. Yeah. All the time. Even with me sometimes because I was gay, he was never accepting of that. So it was like really bad all the time. Oh, well,

behind it because I was just like you just bully people to bully so you have to get that. Maybe it reflects of what's going on at home so. No totally so then your principal. So be nice to the bullies you guys because you know what's going on at home. But I do feel that way there's sometimes where even the online bullies I get like a lot of hate and so like then sometimes I'm like you know what there's probably something going on because I used to I wasn't like a bully but I definitely was like a mean girl for some time online. We love being mean girls though sometimes.

very easy I'm very much like you where it's like almost like a defense mechanism or something like that where I'm just like also I was super unhappy I was like single my whole life I was miserable I was just like the worst so anytime anybody was happy I just like wanted to like drag them down oh it wasn't like that you know that was me no I wasn't like oh you're happy I hate you no no nothing like that but no right as a child it's different because you just have this home life and you're just like for me it was more like I'm bored I'm gonna bully you kind of as a child yeah no but

Right, but there is probably some, I'm not a psychologist, but there's probably some psychological thing where it's like you hear the fighting. Not that you said that. Yeah, I think it was that. That makes more sense because at first I was like, oh my God, you just bullied people just to bully. No, yeah, I think it was a lot to do with it. Yeah, and when he was there, was it like, do you have happy memories of him or it's just all? A few, but very few, you know? And I think my mind really blocks off, like I said, you know how you were saying, like what did that girl tell you in order for me to, my mind blocks off all the bad things. Right, what is that called? It's so weird. It's called something, but there's a lot of bad things that I don't remember like,

that what he would do that sometimes when I like think too much about my past and I really deep dive into that I'm like oh crap I will literally start crying and like tearing up and I will get sad it's because I'm like oh god like that all really happened like yeah I don't remember that there's so many parts to this day where I'm in therapy and I'm like oh my god like I forgot that happened like I

happened like I completely blacked out that's how I am too and it's scary and the older you get when it comes back to you it's like actually so terrifying and you're just like wait I remember this or did it happen did it not like it's yeah so now there's something and then so now I just think like god like I hate him I absolutely hate him so much you don't have any communication with him any communication one he did try communicating with me whenever I moved to LA like the first month he called me from a whole different number because I have him blocked on every number everything and he called me from a whole different number and I was like hello and it was him

And he was just saying, he speaks Spanish. So he said like, hola, how are you? I'm glad you know that. Muy bien, y tú? Hola.

No, I was like, I hung up and blocked that number. Oh, you knew it was him? Yeah. Well, I know his voice. Yeah, it was him. And then I called my mom right after and I was like, mom, my dad just called me. And then she, while I was at my mom's, she was like, how do you feel? And I'm like, how do I feel? Him. I don't want to hear his voice. You know what I mean? Like, I want to throw up. I just heard his voice, you know? Yeah. So maybe, did he, do you think he saw your success? Like he sees you online? Oh, definitely. So he sees you at like New York Fashion Week in Coachella and he's just like, oh, time to call him. Yeah. He's like, oh, he has money. Let me call him. Oh yeah. That kind of vibe. That happened.

I always hear that story for people. I think he's very smart. Honestly, he's a very smart guy. Like, who is a freaking, what's it called? What are they called? Oh, an immigrant. Like, how can somebody be an immigrant and then be like, oh, this woman is so pretty. Like, let me marry her to have a child and that child will soon be 18 years old and get me papers. Oh.

Oh, so you think he planned like a plan? I really think he had an entire plan. Oh. Because I don't think he ever loved my mom, honestly. He would always, she, oh, it's a whole thing. Is your mom American? Oh, yeah, she is. She was born here. But so he could get a green card through that, right? They got married? Sadly, I think now he was able to get a green card just because they were married for so long. I think like 14 years. Oh, yeah, I think you can get it. Yeah, that's crazy. Yeah. What they went through. I was like, I don't know how my mom did it. And I asked her, I'm like, how? Like, why? And she just says, like, she just really loved him.

Yeah, I think in a way they grew up together. You know, I mean they were together for 14 15 years Okay, so and they had three kids together. So obviously oh my mom is up here Different dad's sister that I'm like, that's my sister. Yeah, I live for it though Yeah, cuz I don't I will never understand somebody that could be with a guy for like 15 years and then have like six kids With them. I'm like, do you know I get bored of the same thing?

You would think that. Of the same eggplant every day? Like, come on, switch it up every year. I don't think you do. I think when you're like in love with someone, I think it's like, you can make it exciting each time. Well, yeah. You just have to, you're. Oh, Anika, no, you sure can. At 18, I was like you, 18 to like 30, just do all the eggplants you want. And then after a while, just like, oh, this is like not fun.

not fun anymore. I'm like the kind of person who's like, I want to try it all. I don't want to die like only doing one thing. Right. So you have a lot. I want to travel. I want to try every flavor. Yeah. You have to be careful too, like using you and just all this stuff. I've had a few guys where now that I look back at it, I'm like, he was low-key using me. Yeah. Even if they don't want to be an influencer, they might be using you for like a lifestyle or, you know, just something. It's so weird. I had a guy that I was talking to in New York and whenever I went to New York Fashion Week, I saw him and it was just so weird because there would be moments where he was like, I want to see somebody come up to you. And I was like, what do you mean? He's like, I want to see somebody like take a picture with you. Like, I want to see how famous you are. Oh.

Literally, it turned me off. I was like, ew, ew. Like, why do you want to see that? And low-key, he had a TikTok too and he wanted what I wanted. Oh, no. So that really turned me off and when I came back home, I'm just like, I really like stopped talking to him. Yeah, that's like a weird thing because it's like one thing to like think it's cool like when someone gets recognized. I used to date, I loved to date famous people back in the day. I was like, ooh, but you would never say it to someone because that's like, like,

like don't say it you know what i mean just be like chill about it so you could easily get that in your head and i would have just he showed his real true colors did you take him somewhere were you like in an event or just out in public in general just out in public yeah i let him take me wherever okay yeah so you don't like when you go to like new york fashion week and stuff like coachelle do you bring dates with you or no no well sometimes i'll bring a friend or two but like for example new york fashion week i went with my managers and then with um

She's an influencer, but she's also my friend. And she's also in the same management company as me. So we kind of all went as a group together, and it was super fun. How did you even get invited to that? I think that's amazing. You're so young. New York Fashion Week? Yeah. My managers, I don't know how they did it. I think I told them. Okay, you're like, I want to go. A month before, I was like, I know New York Fashion Week is coming up. I want to go. Wow. I was like, make it your main priority. I want to go. And they were like, I swear we got invited like a week before. Wow. That's like powerful. Love you, Canon. Oh, we have the Canon cameras all the time.

Yeah. Super like last minute. Wow. They were like, let's take dolls out. And we're like, okay, period. I'm like, you know, that's a powerful manifester for, I don't know if you believe in that, but when you speak something, it happened. I have been manifesting my whole life. I wake up. Without even knowing. I have a whiteboard next to my bed. I write everything down. I wake up. I see it. I erase it now that they came because I don't let nobody see my manifestations. Oh, I'm the same. I'm very secretive with mine. I have it in a journal. I forgot to erase it. I mean, my friends all came home from partying and they were all like there. I

They're like, what is this? They saw it. Yeah. The good thing is it was people I trusted like Louis, you know Louis Castro? Yeah, yeah. Okay, I really trust him and everything. He did a great Cali cheese. So he saw it. Oh my God. So good. He killed that. I love that look. I was like, oh my gosh. So he saw it and he was like, oh my God, that's so dope. Okay. I raced in front of him. He was like, no, no,

no he was like don't erase it why'd you erase it i was like no like nobody's supposed to see it he's like no bitch he was like he told me he was like own that shit like if that's what you want like you know you go get it do you have like a wild one out there that you're like this would be crazy to somebody the wildest yeah can you say one no no if you could manifest it's so big right now if you say it out loud but especially online people like just even i feel like even the thought of people saying or thinking like that's a wild thought i feel like even that is bad energy you know

I don't mean none of that. I see what you're saying. I always just say like, I want to be on a talk show. I want to be on White Lotus. I want to start a movie with Quentin Tarantino. You say it all the time. You know what I mean? I think you're very much of like a, you say it to bring it to life. You know what I mean? I'm very much of like, I'm going to think about it all the time. I'm going to write it in papers. I have a whole book of just all my manifestations. I see it next to me in my bed all the time. Yeah.

That's true because there's a lot of evil eye out there for sure. It's like protected. So I get that too. That's cool though. That's cool because you just told your managers like I want to go to your fashion week and then boom, like the next week you're going. I really, it's so funny because I've been hit up by like some of the biggest like management companies now, but I'm with this management that I, they're small, they're very small, but they are truly the best. Like they got me, do you know UTA? Yeah. They got me to UTA.

You have an agent over there? I have an agent over there. Yeah. Wow. Are you going to act? I want to. Oh, my God. Okay. You can act.

I tell them all the time, like, UTA is, like, the biggest agency. Because, like, someone else we know just, like, signed with it. It is the biggest agency, yeah. It's, like, the biggest with WME. Those are, like, the big. And if you can even get a referral to be in there. Because I've never had an agent. I've always wanted to act and never get an agent. But you have managers, right? Yeah, like, I have managers that help me with, like, sponsorships and stuff. But nothing, like, acting. But agencies are hard to get into. More so than management companies. But I got them not specifically for acting. Just, like, they wanted me. They wanted them to get me bigger, like, brand deals.

Oh, so that's what they, interesting. And also they help with like the money stuff. Like they help like get me, I guess more money from the brand deals. Maybe, yeah. So you're going for more mainstream, maybe like McDonald's and like those kinds of things. Yeah, no. Oh my God. I used to work at McDonald's. Really? Yeah. Did you love it? Because McDonald's is my favorite. I loved it. Oh, I love McDonald's. Oh my God, I love working there. The only reason. Tell me all the secrets of McDonald's.

It's like a game. There's like an iPad thing and you're ordering your food and you tell me like, hi, I'm going to get for you. I'm like, I'm just like, damn, do you want more? Like, yeah. Did you say that? No, I would be a little snarky sometimes just for fun. I love it. Oh my gosh. I just hated wearing the hat. I loved the outfit. I hated the slacks. The visor? You hated the visor? I never liked the hat because of my curly hair. I hated it. Oh, it was like flat. But I love the shirt. They're so comfortable. I use it to sleep all the time. The McDonald's shirt. The collared one? Is it with a collar? No. Or a t-shirt? Oh, you had a t-shirt. Those are for the managers.

I go there like literally every week and they always have a collar shirt. Yeah. Well that's, yeah. Well they're always like, Oh, you're a manager now. They're, they're so weird. Oh, interesting. It's like an iPad and there's like little emojis and the other emojis have like, and I'm just like, you know what gets complicated though? Whenever they're like, Oh, can you take this out? Put this in, do this. I'm just like,

can somebody else take this order? Like I'm not dealing with that. Can you do that? Can you trade off? Yeah. Sometimes I'll be like, hey, like this bitch is complicated. Come do it. Yeah. Oh, I know. I feel like I'm a very easy order. I love McDonald's. I love, I love role plays. I love doing like the drive-thru role plays. I used to love that as a kid. I just love acting. Oh, to just pretend. Yeah, pretend. I just,

Did you wear a headset? I did wear the headset, yeah. I love the headset, too. I was like, how? I loved it, too. What would you say? But sometimes there would be a break, and I'd be like, hello? Can you guys hear me? Oh, do you hear? So when someone comes through the drive-thru, what do they say? I would say, hi, welcome to McDonald's. What can I get for you? Something like that. I would have fun with that. All the other girls would say, hey, what can I get for you? But I loved it. It was like a video game for me. I was like, hi, welcome to McDonald's. What can I get for you? They were like, okay.

And I love going fast too. I don't know why. Oh my God. Yeah. You're very, you're actually a really fast speaker and it's usually I can keep up, but I'm like, wow, you actually talk really fast. It takes me a minute to process it. You might be faster. Yeah. Usually I can like listen, but that you're fast. You're one of the only podcasts that I really listen to because you talk so fast. I cannot, I cannot with slow talkers. I get so bored easily. I get bored with men. I get bored with people. I get bored at school and I get bored. Yeah. We have something in common. We have so much in common. Oh my God. Do you get bored easily too? Oh my God. I get bored easily. Slow talkers. I just can't. I'm just always like, like seriously, if someone doesn't finish a sentence, I'm like,

Go, go, go. I get so mad. No, literally, I'm like, I'm going to try to finish it for you. Yes, and that's what I do. But we both also worked at McDonald's drive-thru. It's like, I just love- We used to work at McDonald's? Just on ASMR, not in real life. But I love- I would have loved to. I thought you were like, actually worked at McDonald's. But I worked there for like, I think two months. That's-

That's a slay. That's two months. No, I worked for two months because literally the only reason I quit, because I loved that job so much, but the only reason I quit was because the manager just yelled at me. For what? Not wearing your hat? Talking to the customers or just to people? To the people. Oh. But we were doing our job. I was like one of the fastest workers there. I was getting down. I was taking orders. I was like doing the drinks. Oh, that's... And then I was like back

They're like bagging items. There was one day where it was just me and one other girl at like 8 o'clock at night, which is when all the like, you know. People are coming to get their food. Coming to get their food. Yeah. Like they just got home from a party. Stuff like that. So they're trying to get shit quick. I'm like, how do you. It was like crazy. Why are the ice cream machines always down? They're not down. People just don't want to make them. Yeah. Yeah. That's the tea. Sometimes I'd be like, oh, they're down. No. Oh my God. That's worse than the bullying. I've only done that one time, but you know why? Why? Just because I was bored. Oh.

I was bored. So I wanted to see the reaction whenever I said there wasn't. And then would you be like, just kidding. It works. No. But then I give an ice cream to the girl behind them. That's so. Just for fun. I don't know. I would cry. That's so devastating. I would just get so bored that I'm like, you guys. Yeah. But then when I do give them ice cream, I would fudge it up. Like, like fudge. Right. Right. Yeah. You know.

You know, like peanuts, everything, whatever you want. That's wild. I think they even came through one time when I was working and I gave them like so many sundaes and stuff like that. Can you get free food to your friends? You're not allowed to, but I did it. They wouldn't let us eat on the job. I was trying to eat the fries while I'm working and they wouldn't let me do that. Wait, really? Yeah. Like a little snack? And the free food, you know how they say like, oh, wherever you work, like if you work at Fast Food, they'll give you free food? No. You'd pay for it? Well, they gave us one free meal, but you know what the free meal was? A four-piece McNugget with like a small fry and a small drink. I'm like, who? Apple slices?

slices or no? Yeah. Okay. But I'm like, who is this for? Like, I'm six two, baby. I need to eat. Oh, no. What's your go-to McDonald's order? I don't eat McDonald's anymore after working there. Wait, why? Because it's like nasty? I wouldn't say it's nasty. I would just say it's weird. Like, I don't know. Would you see how the nuggets, you know they show the video of the nuggets with the pink cream and stuff? Yeah, but it's just, it's frozen. I mean, we eat frozen food all the time. I love frozen food. Yeah, so it was never weird. There was a rat there one time. No.

Oh, did they have a B rating? Did they put it down? I think they were just fighting to get it. Yeah, they're getting a broom and trying to get it. I'm not mad at that. I'm not mad at that either. Because we went to a restaurant where our favorite one had a rat run through it. I mean, yeah. Imagine all the other stuff they'd be eating. I don't know. Sprite? What's in the Sprite from McDonald's? Nobody knows. Oh, yeah. Somebody was trying to come at me because I love Wheat Thins. And they put the whole Wheat Thins thing. They were like, oh, Wheat Thins are actually super bad for you. They have this and this. I'm like, babe, you've probably had Sprite from McDonald's.

God knows what's in that. Yeah. Oh my God. They come free with wheat thins. I feel like that's so healthy. That's like a healthy snack. Right. Isn't it a healthy snack? Okay. That's funny. Have you tried them? They're so good.

No, I'm not a wheat thin person. Oh. It just sounds like something I wouldn't be interested in. I just like a potato chip. Oh, no, yeah. Yeah, you know, like a Lay's or something. It sounds better to me. I love Lay's. I don't eat a lot of chips, but if I do, it's going to be Lay's. Okay, because you... Lay's are Takis. Have you talked... Oh, wait, Takis? But not like the real long Takis, like the new wafer Takis. Ooh. The wavy ones. Are they hot?

Yeah. You don't like spicy food? I love spicy food, but I can't with the Takis. I like Hot Cheetos. I don't like Takis. Takis are wild. The blue ones are made me violently sick for months at a time. I think I only ate them one time in middle school. It's just not pretty. How they make them blue, I don't know. It was a whole thing. No, literally, how do they make them blue? And then how does your tongue turn blue? Your tongue turns blue. Everything turns blue. Everything does. Yeah. It was scary. Everything's blue. Wow, that's creepy. Yeah, it was radioactive. I was like, oh, no.

It was wild. Oh my God. One time I ate pink hummus. Oh. It was wild too. I was so scared. I was about to call a doctor and be like, why am I bleeding out? Yeah. Oh, was it the Barbie menu? Yeah. At the Land War Cafe. Oh my God. We're just the same person. Oh my God. Oh yeah. Wait, what happened? I was like, it was coming out pink. Everything was coming out pink. And I was like, why? Why is it red? Like, why is it pink? What am I bleeding out or something? No. I was scared. I was like, why am I bleeding pink? Like, no. Yeah. Pink.

The Beats, yeah. Oh, that's what it is. And I was on my phone. I was going to Safari. I was like, is your poop supposed to be this color? Like, no, yeah. You can go online. And they were saying like, oh, if your poop is this color, you have cancer. I'm like, I was like dying. I was like, wait, why is it pink? But then I was like, okay, maybe, maybe it's the Beats. I finally got to one like little Safari thingy and it said, oh, if you drink or eat something that has like red dye.

Then it'll. No, okay. And I was like, oh. The internet hates red dye. I got the little Spiderman Whopper and everyone's like, it has red 40 in it. I love red dye. What? I love everything red dye. Yeah. I don't think. Wait, but can you. Okay. If you don't want to talk about the sunlight, we don't have to. But can you have that with your. You said you had IVS. Yeah. Have you talked about that? No, I have actually never talked about it. You don't have to. We can literally cut it out. No, I don't want to because people really think whenever I. Like, they see me pour laxatives into my coffee and they're like, Dallas, oh my God. Like, are you trying to be skinny? I'm like, no. That's what I thought when you said you took laxatives.

I'm like, no, no, no, no. I generally have to take like laxatives to even like for my body to even work. You're the opposite of what people think IBS is. Yes. I'm the opposite of when people say like, oh, I'm going to drink coffee. I'm going to be pooping all day. I'm going to like,

eat this and I'm not going to poop ever again. Okay. We won't get too graphic anyways because it's YouTube, but how many days have you gone without? Well, this was a long time ago. Now that I was introduced to laxatives and now that a doctor told me, oh, take this many laxatives a day or take this medication, it's better. But before, when I was younger, when I didn't know what was wrong with me, with my body, you know what I mean? It was like a week without pooping.

I've been to the hospital multiple times and when I like in pain really really bad like crying screaming and I get there and they're like oh it's because you have poop in your stomach and it's not coming out I guess it's like yeah

Yeah. It's just stuck there. I used to say this story all the time. I'd be like, I'd go weeks without it and people would be like, that's impossible. And I was like, no. When I was a kid, I used to go weeks without going. And I heard it's like really bad. Yeah. But I was the same way. I'd have really bad stomach problems. But they never told me that when I went to the doctor. They would just give me like pills or whatever. But then I would. They wouldn't even give you pills. Yeah. Right. Exactly. I had to take like, there was diet pills back in the day that made you like go. And I ended up taking those. Yeah. It was called like Ali. And it was like,

And it even had a warning that it made you, like, leaky. And so, anyways, that's what I took to, like, make it regular. But anyways, that's a whole other thing. You saw the losing weight label and you were like, yes. Yeah. Oh, I'm all about it. I'm, like, trying to get on that Ozempic now. I'm just like, God, everyone's on it right now. And I'm like, I'm so scared. I'm so scared of everything. I'm like, I'll probably be the 1% guys. I think it's so easy to get in L.A., but it's easy to get in L.A. That's what I heard. And I heard it was really expensive. I heard it's like $1,000 a month. Have you had somebody like that? No.

You don't? I'm scared. I have some. Wait, really? Have you tried it? No, no, no. I'm saying I know somebody that has somebody and I got in contact with them for one of my family members. Oh my God. For a Zempik? Yeah. But I never. No, please. I'll disintegrate. I will literally. I'll collapse. No, yeah. I'm an Zempik.

No, I know. But if I do, I'll literally collapse. Like, I will become nothing. I don't think I could get any skinnier than this. Oh, man. But do you love... I love being skinny. I'm obsessed with being skinny. So you don't love being tall. You love being skinny. Yeah, being skinny. No, I love being tall, too. Just not when it comes to men. Okay. You like for the model, the aesthetic look. I love being tall. I love being tall. I love being super skinny. Oh, yeah. Being skinny. I know. It's like such a great thing. I just hate that people hate on it. You know what I mean? Like, if you say you love being skinny, they're like, oh, well, there's something wrong with you. It's like...

I love that you're honest about it because the world loves skinny and people want to be skinny. I love skinny. Yeah, but it's like even some people like big people, some people like being big and who gives a shit? You know what I mean? That's amazing. I definitely don't. When people are like, God, I wish I loved being fat, but that's not the case. But I love eating. It's hard. I can't choose. But I think it's because you love your own body, so that's all that matters. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I think you get to a point. There's always going to be somebody commenting. Yeah. Yeah.

people that are like the old age thing too i didn't want to get older now i'm like older i'm like i'm old but i think that was epic i think like with housewives and stuff like that they were always skinny but then they get so skinny it's like the koreasians it's like they got so skinny like under a year yeah so then you're just you know when i think it started i think it started whenever she was trying to fit into the maryland monroe dress oh you think she took like i think she was like how am i gonna fit into this i need something quick she went to the doctors and doctors were like hey this is really severe and it's crazy but we can give it to you she took it and she lost all that weight she fit into the dress but then she kept going going because it's an ozempic like

you have to keep taking it. Yeah. We just were talking to someone about this. He's like, once you stop it, gain it back. Yeah. So it's a lifetime commitment. But it's like any diet pill. It's like anything in the world, right? Right. Like diet and exercise should be a lifetime thing. I don't know. It's like exercising. If you're going to stop exercising, you're going to lose the muscle. Right. That's true. Yeah. It makes sense. I know. It sounds complicated. I just want a magic pill that I can take once and that's it. And then I'm just skinny. I mean, I used to be kind of big. What? I used to be very big, actually. No. What do you mean very big? Yeah.

No. Yes. No. Big. I would have my friends, my own friends would tell me, I love hugging you because you're so fat. What? Yeah. She's saying no. She's saying no because they're the nice friends. They weren't the friends that said that. What's fat? Give me a. I was chubby. I was like, I was 5'9 weighing like 150. That's not chubby. You don't think so? No. I was 150 at like five years old. Oh my God.

Oh my God. That's nothing. I wish I was 150. I think what it also is, is just seeing how skinny I am now and then looking back, I'm like, holy shit, I was huge. Totally, like relative, yeah. Actually, I like bigger people too when I like hug them. I'm like, oh, it's kind of squishy. I like it too. I don't like to admit it because I didn't like whenever people told me that. Right. But it is. Yeah, you don't want to tell. Also, you feel more comfortable around bigger people. Yeah. I feel like, right? Why did you whisper it?

I don't know. I feel bad. I don't want to be like bigger people. Yeah. I guess when you're skinny. It's like one of those things when you're fat. Like you can say it when you're skinny. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I get you. For sure. It was healthy shit. Like Dallas is like fat shaming. I'm like, oh my God. I just think. I feel a little more comfortable too. The internet's crazy. I told you I'm careful. You know. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No. No. They are. They are. Yeah. No. There's nothing.

think there's anything wrong with it either but you know how they are yeah because i think it's just actually if i say the word they're gonna be like oh my god he's just fashioning me yeah yeah i get you people are very i feel like with skinny too i always call people skinny and i'm like now it's like offensive to call people that i'm like i never mean it like oh there's they're thin they're small but i think now just not you can't come on anyone's anything but you really can't yeah but i mean it's i i guess it's fine because there's no really need to yeah right what i don't i

I don't, I, yeah, whenever I look at someone, I'm just like, I just think everyone's tiny. Like, compared to me, I'm never looking at someone like, oh, they're like huge or anything like that. But anyways. Well, yeah. It's a whole thing. We got a whole tangent from the McDonald's to this. No, literally. From nowhere back to you. I'm like, where do we start? Wait, where do we start? What was the first thing we were talking about? Oh, I was trying to get back to your high school. Oh, back to me, high school, yeah. Yeah, because there's a whole thing. So were you on TikTok in high school?

Freshman year. Okay, so whenever... You know how I told you how my friend told me to start doing makeup? That was in my last year of middle school, so eighth grade. During that whole summer, I was on my makeup grind. I was practicing doing makeup. The good thing is my mindset was I'm not going to post any makeup until I get better at it because then I don't want to embarrass myself. So I did. I really did get better at it and I started posting on Instagram because at the time, Instagram was the thing with the beauty girls were posting their...

videos on Instagram things like that the pictures you know so I was like one of those people like I would post the pictures I would make Instagram videos like cool transition videos and stuff then TikTok came out and I was like no like I loved Musical.ly so I was one of the girls that was like lip syncing no I was one of the bitches that like I hated TikTok I was like no I'm not gonna use that app like bring Musical.ly back you know I loved Musical.ly oh my god and then after a year I think like towards the end of my freshman year I got on TikTok

But I got banned three times. Actually, this is my third account. Yeah, 13th of July. Because I was so young. I was like 14, 15 on TikTok and they didn't allow that. I think you'd be 13. Oh, no. Well, they changed the rules so much. They were like going back and forth. They were like, oh, 14. Actually, no, 13. And then they're like, actually, now you can't go live until you're 18. So literally, they were going crazy with the rules. I'm like, okay, well, what do I do?

I do now. So I got banned at 14 again at like 15, but my followers were like, I got banned the first time I like a hundred thousand followers. Second time I was at 300,000. So you can just imagine how, but you know what? I kept going. Well, now you're like 4 million plus. So the good thing is I kept going. I didn't stop because it was something I really wanted to do. Yeah. Cause you wanted to, but you, okay. So it was interesting is you said you weren't even like passionate about makeup. Like it's not like it was your passion about fashion my entire life. Like that was my thing. I, as a child, I would be like,

Well, first I wanted to be an actor and then a singer and then I was like fashion. Oh my gosh. Wait. So, okay. So you want to be an actor, then you want to be a singer. Can you sing? Are you a good singer? No, no, no, no. I was just a child. No, I can't. Oh, I bet you can't. First of all, I love when people are humble because you know that people are like, oh yes, I'm a singer. Then they sing and it's like not that good. But like,

I like when they're humble and then surprise you. But it's like, no. No, that's not true. I can sing. I love singing, but I definitely can't. No, you can sing. No, I can't sing. Yes, you can. I thought of you when you heard me sing. Oh my God, stop. Okay, I love that you were. I love anyone who wanted to be a singer at one point because I think that's like the ultimate. Yeah, I wanted to act. I obviously wanted to be in that industry. You know what I mean? Acting is definitely going to be in your future for sure. I really wanted to do acting. That was something that was really big on. I was put into acting classes as a kid, but it was more like of a dancing acting.

Oh. Like drama. What did they call it? Like musical theater? Like musical theater. Oh, okay. I was in that as a kid for like a year. Like what did you do? Plays? But then my mom couldn't afford it, so we left. But yeah, I did plays. It is expensive. Oh, yeah. What were you in? Do you remember? I was in two plays. One of them, but it wasn't like, no, actually not plays. It was more, it was so weird. Oh, wait, actually one of them was like a Grinch. Oh, okay. It was a Grinch theme. I kind of remember the dance a little bit. I was like, I was so tired. Do you want to do it? Do you want to sing it? No, no, no. No, but I remember it.

I remember like a little memory of like me on the floor starting and I had to say something with a Grinch song and I was like not singing it of course. It was like a lip sync moment. You're like acting. Okay. But I was like you know. Were you the Grinch or were you like a who? No I was like one of the little side dance characters. Yeah I think it was a who. Okay I love that. That's so cute. Okay so then you then fast forward

You want to be like a designer? That was hardcore fashion. Like I'm telling you, hardcore. Like in elementary, I would like have all these books of fashion designs. Like I was really, that was my thing. I wanted to go to New York. I wanted to go to like a fashion school in New York because obviously New York is the fashion place. Mm-hmm.

That was really my goal until I got to makeup. My goal was to go to college in New York. Okay, so you're sketching middle school. You're like a teenager. Yeah, sketching. It was very much elementary, fashion, middle school. I was already a teenager there. Still into fashion. How did that transition into makeup? Well, my best friend at the time, she told me she was like, well, I was very into the art stuff.

So then she just told me that I should try doing makeup. That's so wild. It's so random, right? So random. We were literally just like walking down the halls on our way to art class. And for some reason she was like, you should try doing makeup. Wow. And how did you start? What was your first, and you on your friend? At the time we would do little YouTube videos. Okay. I,

There's some out there of me vlogging in school. I don't think I've seen this one. No, you're not going to find those. I think I even privated some, but some were on a different account. Okay. Yeah. But I was vlogging, you know, my school. I was vlogging everything. I was a little YouTuber. Oh my God, love. And so then whenever she said that, I was like, okay, let's do a fun makeup video. And I did. It was like me and all my friends who got in my room. And at the time there was this trend going around and it was like the, where you have your friends like go to the store and they pick out one crazy item and you have to like

use it in your makeup routine. So we all did that. So we're all three lined up camera right there and we were all just doing our routine. It was so fun. What was the crazy makeup item? Do you remember? Mine was a blue lipstick and I still have it. I love a blue lipstick. It was a blue liquid lipstick. Yeah. I think I used it on my eyes or something. Oh my God. And that video is no longer up. It's privated. It's there but it's privated. I want to see put it up. Oh my gosh. Is it on the channel now? Because your channel now only has like a few. I'll maybe put it up. Maybe. I'll think about it. That would be great to see. But it is on my same YouTube channel that I have now. Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh. Yeah, it was privated. Wow. And were people like- That's how it started. This is great? Or were you- No, I was- It was your first one. Yeah, it was just- Yeah, it was- But sometimes- Probably got like 20 views or something. Yeah. Okay. But was it good? Was it like, did you do good with the blue eyeshadow? Oh, yeah. Oh, no. Oh, really? I thought you meant the editing was good. I was a very good editor back then. Yeah. That's talent too. The editing was good. I can never edit. But the blue eyeshadow, no, no.

It wasn't? No. Remember, that was the first time I got into makeup. Right. That was the first ever, because she told me to try doing makeup, and then we did that video. But if you were, like, sketching, I thought maybe you could just naturally know how to do it, you know? Well, if you look at it, it was probably better than most firsts. Yeah, I bet it was. Yeah, but, like, you know, for me, I look back, and I'm like, ugh.

I feel like it's good. My husband's an artist and I had him do my eyeliner like the idol and he slayed it. Oh my God. Period. In like one and I was just like, and he's never done makeup before so he does my foundation, my mascara, he does my lashes for me. Oh my God. I love that. He's way better at it than I am. So it's like, you know, just naturally when you're like a talented artist, I think like you know how to do a face, you know? Yeah.

But yours now is like really elevated. So would you practice on yourself? Like did you enjoy wearing makeup? I would practice on myself. I really enjoyed it. So I would always do eyeshadow. From that point, it was just always eyeshadow. That's the toughest one. Not really the base. Yeah. But I was so into it because I was a very artistic person. So eyeshadow was a thing I would play around with color. And obviously we were in that era too. Yeah. Of like crazy colorful eyeshadow. So I was always playing around. Yes. I think my first video was a rainbow look with like a cut crease.

like a cut crease. A white cut crease. That was so hard. I mean, a lot of that airs over because I can never do one. I'm like, this is so difficult. Oh, no, I live for cut crease. No, I live for cut crease. I just can't do it. It's so hard. I think you have one on right now. It looks really good. Yes, I love a cut crease now, but I did not do this. I had someone else, you know, but. But from there, you know, I said I was doing Instagram and then TikTok came out and then I started doing TikTok videos. And then I noticed that like a lot of the YouTubers that would do like tutorials, they weren't doing that anymore. You know what I mean? Yeah. It really stopped. It was more like of challenges and fun videos and reviews. And I was like, okay, well, these bitches don't know how to do makeup, so let me show them. Yeah. And I did.

and that's what really boosted me like showing them I think my first viral video was like I had a curl your eyelash video it got like 4 million views and I was like

Oh my god. I don't know how to come by. Oh my god. Actually, I did that video twice. Why? My first account. Remember I got banned? I did it on my first account. It got like 5 million views. And then after that account had its era, I got my new account. And then I was like, wait, that video went viral. Let me do it again. Wow. I literally tried to do the same exact video again. I did it and it went viral again. You should do one now and see what it would do. I should do another one. No, I did. Recently? Like how recent was that? No, a long time ago. Do one like today. Each account has one. Okay.

one okay i love that yeah i don't know how to curl my eyelashes and i don't even know how a makeup artist do it like if they put one to my eye i can't do it i don't know it's so i don't know how to do it either because whenever i do people's makeup i tell them curl your lashes girl i can't oh yeah because it's like how do you i don't want to pinch you on accident or i do put on their lash but like the curling and the mascara i'm like i don't want i've seen like someone's eyelid flip and i'm like ever since then i'm like no i never want that thing near my eye like they like flip the eyelid oh yeah they go like like that i think tana used to do that i saw an old video of her going like into her eye and then yeah

She did, yeah. That looks like it hurts so bad. No, yeah, she would put mascara on and then she like,

I think it doesn't bother them or anything like that, but I don't know. I don't know. I don't do that. I love that your TikToks now are kind of reminiscent of that era. You know what I mean? You kind of have a little bit of the old school beauty blogger. Yeah. I like to give a little of everything. Yeah. Because I just, I don't want, I get bored of things. So I don't want people to get bored. You know what I mean? No, you have a good variety. Did you watch Beauty and the Monsters growing up or not really? Yes, I did. I watched a lot of Bretman Rock and like Louis. Oh, okay. Yeah. Oh, now you're friends with Louis. I know. Yeah. That's so cool. And I'm mutual with Bretman Rock. We've never met, but-

I love Bretman. He's everywhere. He's on all the covers and magazines. I don't even think. He's not an influencer. He's a celebrity. Oh, for sure. No, there's certain people who just go mainstream and that's definitely Bretman. Yeah. He's beautiful too. Yes. He's also like a model. Yeah. Would he be trade?

No. Okay. I don't know. He could. To me, I was like... If you put him in the right outfit, he could pass as trade. I didn't know he was out. I didn't know he was gay. What? Yeah, I really didn't. I was like, oh, that guy's like hot. No, he's a very beautiful man. Yeah, I had no... That's what I'm saying. I'm so bad. I have no idea. Everyone is trade to me. A lot of girls are honestly into him, too. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, for sure. I think he says... I don't know. I don't want to... Okay. But I think he says he's not a certain... Okay. He's just...

He's just Brentman. Doesn't identify. He doesn't identify. He's Brentman, which I love. I love when people... Yeah, if you're just fluid and just whatever, I love that too. I love when people know who they are and then I love when people are just like, I don't care. It's whatever. I love that. I love when a guy tells me that. I don't care. I'm like, oh, period. Oh, yeah. Even the DLs. They're like, I don't know. Maybe they don't know. Maybe they're also... If they say I don't know, I'm like, I'm peace. No, I'm not doing that. I don't know. But what if they're just confused or scared or don't know or want to try it? I am too...

Secure. I'm so secure. I know what I want. When a guy is confused and doesn't know what he wants, I'm like, I cannot deal with that right now. I have too much stuff on my plate. So if someone's like, I just want to try. Then I'm like, go try it with somebody else. Okay. I respect it. Because then I don't want to gain any feelings. You know, I'm too scared of that. Because when I gain feelings, it's like, oh shit. Yeah. I've had people do that with me. They didn't know. They're like, I don't know if I'm like gay or not. And then I'll be like, then they'll be with me like, I'm gay. I was like, oh,

Oh, wait, a guy? Yeah. I don't know. I might like women and then one with me and then just like, I don't like women actually. I'm so glad it could be that deciding factor for you. Yeah.

Oh my God. I don't mind it though. I never minded it growing up. Yeah, that must have sucked. Yeah, it's humbling. It happened way too often too. I would always go for like gay guys and I just didn't know they were gay. But I would meet them in West Hollywood at like Mickey's and I'd be like, oh. Oh, you didn't know they were gay? No. No, because there are some that it's like, yeah. Yeah. That's trade. Yeah. There you go. That's trade. The ones that you didn't know they were gay, that's a trade.

Yeah. I don't know. I can't tell anything, but I think that's the way to go. I love Bretman. So Bretman. You said Joey, though. He wasn't really beauty. You just liked him. No, I love Joey. Joey's the greatest. Minecraft, everything. I love Joey. Oh, wow. You watched his gaming channel? Yeah. No, I was obsessed. Happy about him?

I have met his ex. Daniel. Daniel. I've met Daniel. Just random? Just out? Out. He was with Manny. They're always together. Oh, are you friends with the beauty boys of that era? Like Manny and... Yeah. Yeah, I'm friends with them. Oh, Patrick you're friends with. He was like an OG. He was actually the person that really took me in when I came out to LA. I honestly would not have been as comfortable coming to LA if it wasn't for Patrick. Okay. Because he was the only friend I had out here at the time. And he put you in his campaigns and stuff like that. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. So that's amazing. And also like he, you know, he took me out with him a lot. So I met a lot of new people through him. Wow. Because he knows like everyone.

Oh, yeah. When he's got like a brand in Sephora and he's doing one Stefani. So I met so many people through him too. So yeah. He definitely became like so mainstream too where I feel like he doesn't even care about his YouTube because he's like has such a big brand. Yeah. I think he's more of like a, what do they call them? Like brand owners? Not brand owners. Yeah. Well, he is like a brand owner. Yeah. But like they're called something. Entrepreneur. Entrepreneur. That. Oh my God. I'm guessing these words. Sometimes I get it, sometimes I don't. He's more of like an entrepreneur now than like an influencer. So he's like your like mentor? Yeah, very much. Okay. That's nice. That's cool. And also like my best friend out here because you know. Oh,

that I love that because you guys okay you guys did the Taylor Swift and Beyonce so fast how did he come up with that so quickly he said get dressed over here we need to do this now I for is he like a big Taylor Swift Beyonce fan or what I think he's a big Beyonce fan not Taylor Swift okay okay so he's like we need to do this right now he's like you look like Taylor Swift let's go he was like yeah he's like you're the only skinny twink white person I know you need to get dressed over here I loved it we talked about it on the podcast I was like

I was like, it would happen so fast. I was like, how do they cosplay? Literally two days after. Two days. Yeah. I was like, that's impressive because I love cosplaying people, but it takes me about a week to get a costume around. I was so tired. Yeah. Especially at custom. Who did your dress? No, it wasn't custom. Gaijonis. Do you know what that is? No. Santiali. Oh, really? Yeah, Santiali. Wait, what did you call it? Gaijonis. What does that? What's it mean? I don't know. It's what they call it. Santiali. Is it Spanish? Spanish for Santiali. Gaijonis. Gaijonis. I love Santiali. I didn't know. Gaijonis. Yeah. I love it. No, yes. But Tonga? I know.

No, I actually hate when people call it Santee Alley. I'm like, no, it's the Guyonis. Guyonis. I like that. Oh, I like that. That sounds so cool. It's way better too. Santee Alley, like that's boring. That's a street name. That's wild though because it's like they have that dress already made. It looks exactly like her dress, right? Yeah. Oh, that's weird. So it must be just like a style. I think Patrick had like one of his assistants or something go and get the dress and they brought back that. Maybe they like customized it because it looked exactly like her. No, it was Santee Alley. That same morning he got it.

That's wild. Literally everything all the same day. We shot in his office because he just got like a new one size office. Okay. So we shot there. We literally planned everything the day before. He was like, do you want to do it? And I was like, yeah.

That's so fun. He was like, girl, it's going to be crazy. Trust me. You have to do it. And I was like, okay, fine. And when you do it fast like that, people are always shook. That's what he told me. He was like, but if we're going to do this, we need to do it now. Oh, yeah. We can't wait for anybody else to do it. We need to do it now. Yeah, because if you wait, someone else does do it. He took my ass to a movie theater. I hated that way he put me in. I was so uncomfortable. It looks so good. You look beautiful. It looked good because it looked like her hair. I don't know who did her hair that day, but it was not. Yeah, I was not into it.

not like a swifty but i'm not i'm not one either but she looked pretty i love her old songs oh yeah yeah like the love songs just not like romeo what's the song romeo romeo julia that one and then also the other one what was that blank space i got a blank space that's the ones i know those are you belong with me that one oh that one yeah i think that's the romeo julia when i was thinking of that era i love yeah yeah you don't like the tape you don't care yeah not really what do you

follow though like celebrity wise I'm into more like Megan Thee Stallion Nicki Minaj Ice Spice I loved your Ice Spice I saw that she commented and that she lived for your Ice Spice I know she sent me a DM I sent her a DM I love that for her too that she actually like liked it oh my god and she like I think she runs her accounts because I sent her a DM on TikTok and she DM'd me back

and I was like, oh my God, girl. Oh, you thought it was going to be like somebody else. Yeah, and it was like her and I was like, oh God, I live for them too. I love, I live, yeah. I love Nicki, but I do love Ice so much right now. I do. She's just so cool. She's so iconic, yeah. I love the way she performs where she just kind of, you know, like, oh, she's so cool.

She's a queen. No, she really is. I love how she's just standing there and she's just... That's what I'm saying. To just go on a stage and just kind of vibe and be like that. She vibes. It's really just vibes. I love it. It's not even a performance. She just vibes on stage and I love that. Yeah, because you know some people... That's totally cute when people do full-on choreography in these huge shows. But I love a girl that can just... Yes. I feel like those full-on choreography shows, it's very like... But hers, it's very like, yes. Yeah. It gives that kind of different energy. You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, I love her. I think she's on tour with Doja Cat pretty soon, like in a couple weeks. Is she? Yeah.

I did not hear about that. Yeah, it's everything. I was like, oh, man, because I just love her so much. And I love Nikki. I love all. Oh, yeah, those are cool. I like that. I love Nikki, too. Yeah. I like that. Well, they're pink girlies. They're like barbs. I met her. No, OK. I didn't meet her at the Barbie premiere. She walked past me. Oh, yeah. You were at the premiere. I was at the Barbie premiere. Did you get that through your management? Yeah. Oh, my God.

You're everywhere. You are so, I'm in awe. I'm so in awe of you. That's why I say I really had the best management ever because I knew the Barbie movie was coming. Yeah. And I was like, I know there's going to be a premiere. Yes. I know it's going to be big. So I told them, I was like, again, make this your main priority. I want to be in that Barbie premiere. And they got it. No one got tickets. I,

Okay, I never asked for anything. I know. But I asked every single person I knew, like, entertainment tonight. Yeah, I was surprised you weren't there. I was like, what? I was gutted. I feel like all the pink girlies should have been there. Well, a lot of them, yeah. There was a lot there, but then there was a lot that weren't. They're like, I didn't get invited and stuff like that. Like, my friend Sugar from Sugar and Spice, she didn't get invited. Yeah, I saw that, too. And I was like, how? You're like a doll. No, literally. They introduced me to that. What is Monster High? They introduced me to that. Oh, yeah, we love Monster High. And Oscar loves Monster High. Everyone loves Monster High. I have to get into it. I love Monster High.

I love their whole... They're just dolls, right? They're skinny, I love it. But they're skinny dolls. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. The skinny legends. Yeah. All dolls are skinny legends. I get it. I was going to say, where it's like, Santa gave me a fat Barbie. I want a skinny Barbie. What's that from? That's a meme. Oh, really? This little girl opened a gift and it was a Barbie. And then she was like, Santa gave me a fat Barbie. I want a skinny Barbie. Wait, is that... Because honestly, I did that for real when I was five years old. My dad got me a plushie of Snow White. And it was like... And I'm like...

and I'm like, this is fat snow white and I wanted a skinny Barbie. Oh, I threw a tantrum. He took me back to the store that same day because I was like, I don't want fat snow

That's no way. Have you ever dressed up as a monster? Hi. One time I did do Draculaura a long time ago. I think last Halloween I did, but not fully dressed up, just like the makeup. Your Halloween looks are crazy, but let's get back to Barbie because I need to know. So you asked them, how much time did you get in between? I got there late, so I didn't really get to do the pink carpet that much. You did do it though. I did do it. I just didn't get Getty's images. Oh, okay. Yeah, everyone loves the Getty. You know how everybody loves Getty images? Yeah, so stupid. What I don't get is why do they just screenshot it? Why don't they buy the thing so there's no Getty image across, or they want the Getty image across it? Because they're cheap. No, I'm just kidding. No, I'm just kidding.

Maybe they would have flexed. No, they want the Gettys images across it because it's Gettys. That's so funny. I don't know. They live around here. And I'm just like, girl, just take the picture yourself. How do people get on there? Because I have like one from like 2012. I'm like, how did that even get on there? They just take the photos. I don't know. Who takes the photos? I heard that they charge like $20,000 for like an hour to be there. Like Gettys charges that much. That's what I heard. Oh, and they just own all those photos of everybody. Yeah. Okay, so you weren't on Gettys for it. But I did see you on it. I guess Gettys is like the photography. I don't know. I don't get it. I wonder.

I always see it. I'm like, is it owned by the Getty's? Like Getty Oil? Oh yeah, Getty's. Mr. Getty. I think that's the guy. Just a random Mr. Getty? Yeah. I think he's the owner. It's a family owned thing. Like the Getty Museum people own Getty images? It's a family owned thing. That's what I know. It's a family. Oh, okay. Because Gigi's husband is a Getty. So I'm like, I wonder if they... That's him. Oh, really? Gigi's husband, yeah. No. Yeah. No.

them so well. I think they would have brought up that they like own Getty Images. If you know them, tell Getty's to pull up. I'm like, yeah, like Getty's. I want to get on Getty Images. No, seriously, yeah. I didn't know this was a thing. That's their whole story. At least that's what I heard. I thought they were like oil. I thought they had like a bunch of money from Shell Station or something. I thought they owned the Shell Stations. No, I think that's why people are so like, oh, Getty's, Getty's, because they're so, they're like a small, you know. I know nothing about these things. And they somehow get,

pictures of everyone so man getty images i had no idea yeah but you're on there with other i'm on there with other stuff but i missed the carpet because i was late why of course i was just glamming and i was late i love it i thought you were late today oh my god we can talk about this but it's also just on me i'm more embarrassed i was like no i was embarrassed for a second i was like oh my god wait no she's gonna think that i'm a bitch and i just like wanted to be late or something but no no oh my god honestly don't usually care but like you know we have a photographer that comes whatever and so this was like and

I'm so like scheduling people like, you know, sitters and all this stuff. Like I schedule people so much and I was just like, okay, so I was like 11 o'clock. It's like 1140. I'm like, let me just text. And you're like, oh, I'm like getting,

getting ready. I'll be there and like, you know, I'm going to leave soon. I was just like, wait, what? And then I looked at- Barely getting ready, yeah. But okay, okay. So then I looked back and I was like, okay, yesterday I said 11 a.m. And then I was like, oh man, but then you showed me the one where you're like 1 p.m. And I was like, but my messages don't appear from you. Really? You're not in my DMs. Do you have like vanish mode on or something? On TikTok or on message? Oh, well, that's a different story. It's probably on TikTok. I went to Instagram. I'm like, I don't see these messages. No, yeah, on TikTok is whenever. Oh my God, I'm so- Oh, when I sent you that, you thought it was on message? Instagram or something. I'm like trying to find- No, it was on TikTok. Oh my God.

god i literally first like had our conversation through tiktok and then we moved to my bitch yeah wow i was so dumb and then i felt so bad because i honestly wasn't like even mad or anything i was like wait but i was like i was like oh man because i was like oh man because i just well my zayah then i was like i don't know if he can stay but then we can never go to lunch and came back he's super chill and cool but i was just like um and also at

I'm always just like, I don't know. I want a good photo. But anyway, and then I want to get, when you saw, when you sent me what I said back, we were like, is 1 PM okay? This was like, you know, when we first booked, I was like, yeah, of course. I was like, oh my God, I'm literally so dumb. And I felt so bad. And I like, I never wanted to come across like mad or anything. I was like, oh my God, whatever. Take your time. Like, I'm so dumb. I sometimes just can't schedule things. I don't know. It's like, I literally, my brain, I can't like think about things. I don't know. I should have an assistant or something, but I never do. No, it's just me. Yeah.

Really? And I get in trouble all the time because I'm scheduling appointments and going on podcasts. And I schedule wrong. I miss people's podcasts. Oh, well, you should definitely get an assistant. Especially since you have a kid. It's just so much easier. I got one just because I was so stressed. Being new, they want me here. They want me there. So I was just stressing out. And I think that stress was getting to me too much. And I was like, I don't want to portray that stress onto my followers. Because I will not film if my energy is not in line.

Yeah. Oh, totally. If I'm sad or if I'm too angry, I will not film because I don't want to give that energy out. Yeah. You know, I want to make, I'm filming to give out smiles, not that, you know? Right, not like stress. So they were stressing me. My manager was stressing me too much with too much work. So I was like, I'm going to just get an assistant. And now she will literally like, we have a group chat and I mute the group chat all the time. It's always on mute. Oh, so smart. And I tell her, only ever tell me if it's something important. Yeah.

Oh, I love. If it's not, I do not care. But you like trust. You guys grew up together. I don't know if I could find someone that I trust like that. That's true. Yeah. My managers did tell me they were like, because I told them I wanted an assistant and they were like, oh, well, we can find one for you. But they did tell me they're like, we can either find one for you or if you have a friend or somebody that you already trust. Yeah. And I was like, well, sure.

she's very smart. She has her life put together. Like, I'm gonna, yeah. It's the way to go. It's like knowing Tana's friend is her assistant. She already knows everything about me. You know what I mean? Like, I can literally trust her with anything because she knows who I am. Yeah. She knows your location every time. Everything. So I'm like, can you just do this caption, that caption? Or she will answer my manager for me. Like, they'll be like, hey, like, the brand needs a caption for this. I'll be like, she'll do it because she knows how I am. She knows how I'll caption it. It's super important. If you find someone to trust, I just, I've never had one. I don't trust people in general because I don't really have

friends but like it's just hard to find and my husband he was kind of like he everyone joked that he was like my assistant but you know now we have like a baby and he helps me run this so it's like too much so I don't know I'm also very like um like I like to I don't know micromanage I'm very like I like to be in control oh you like to do everything yourself I do but I'm also out of control because I book things and I don't show up to things and then people get pissed at me and I'm like I'm so sorry I'm so dumb and like today I was just like oh my god like that was my bad I was like oopsie and that's what I said sorry

kidding take your time I was just like oh man I'm like we'll make it work I'll find someone I know I was so glad whenever you said it's okay take your time oh I felt so bad because I was not going to do a liner I was like oh my god I'm running late I can't do a liner oh my god but then whenever you said take your time I was like I'm doing the liner no and you always gotta look great I never like brushing glam like on my music videos when they would rush glam I'm like don't rush hair and makeup like that's the most important yeah and yours is great today the liner thank you I can never do the liner but it looks so good thank you I did cut crease for you we were looking at your glam photos and I was like he does a lot of cut creases I live for a cut crease first of all I just saw your bed

oh my god I want this is this did you get this recent or is it recently I saw that they just came out with and I bought it Versace I live for it it's like one of my favorites I'm kind of gay there's matching shoes that Selena Gomez wore oh my god no but now I need it wait did you ever get those pink ones that they were telling like I did I didn't fit because my calf is too fat oh no and it was awkward because it was white calf oh that's not what I was going to say yeah it was a white oh trust me that had a whole meltdown I was like okay that's awkward they were like

They were like fabulous on your legs, the shark boots. No, and I got the bag. I did get the matching Givenchy one. I have so many pink blue leggings. I have Versace. I have Givenchy. It's the one thing I buy. Now I need that because it's so beautiful. I would put my Diesel one down because you're a Diesel. I didn't even have a purple one, too. Well, no. Pink is the way you got to go. No, yeah. Pink is way better. If it's purple or pink, you need pink. But I have a Diesel because of you. I got this pink Diesel top pink. I live for Diesel. Oh, my God. You got it because of me?

Yeah, literally. Did you hear that, Diesel? Please. I thought you were sponsored by Diesel. It's all over your Instagram. I just, I love Diesel because Dallas, Diesel, yeah. That is the one thing I am manifesting, but like manifesting by using it out there. Hopefully one day they'll see me and be like. We got to manifest on camera.

on camera right here everybody go to Diesel's Instagram and be like Dallas I love it is that ever on your vision board no it isn't actually put it on there because I have bigger things than that on my vision board oh my god I want to know I gotta see this one day maybe take a picture and snap it to me you can help me manifest it yeah I

I love... We can have a manifesting day. I would love. Oh, yeah. I used to really... Now, I have no time at all whatsoever, but I used to literally light a candle, sit in the dark, be in my room, and just writing in my book and manifesting. Oh, I do it every morning. I do it for a half hour. I meditate for a half hour, and then I journal for a half hour every morning. Oh, that's... I love that. Yeah, I'm like, can you watch the baby? I got to go meditate. And if I don't do it, it throws up my day. Oh, I love that. Yeah. I do, because...

Because I wasn't doing it for a while after I gave birth. She can manifest with you. Oh, she's. At a certain age. Yeah. No, she's like a, she's the ultimate manifester. When she came along, all of a sudden, everything just fell into place. So I was just like, oh, she's like this manifest light, you know? Is she already talking or not yet? Yeah, she says words. Well, not really. She's like, no. Has she said pink yet? No. You should really get her to say pink. Bubblegum.

bubblegum i know that'd be so cute bubblegum is also very iconic yeah bubblegum was like her first word so i was like okay that's kind of cute but yeah i think she's a pink girly for sure no she might not be one day i put her in all this pink i'm like one day she might not want to be pink yeah she might be like over it yeah which is fine i'm into like gothic emo aesthetic too so i know i know that i love it you've done it all i live for it yeah i like to change it up too like you said i get bored like you get bored i get bored you know but the diesel the diesel sponsorship you need i think that would be i think that or modeling because you were just such a model have you modeled i

That was a thing that I wanted to do. I told my managers when I move out to LA, I really want to do modeling. But I looked into it and they get paid dust. Yeah. Literally, they get paid dust. And even though I'm like, you know, Adoptive Windows Online and I have a following, I still have to wait in line. I still have to wait in line and I still have to...

Walk in front of them and get casted. And I don't want to do that. Oh, really? I'm shocked. It doesn't matter the following. Well, unless you're like a huge celebrity. I think that'll change. I think somebody will come. Especially because you're just so tall. That's what they told me. They told me one day they were going to come to you. I promise you. That's what they said. Oh, for sure. Also just because you look like a model too. But you also have the following. So I think that'll just happen. They told me to just try to do more like fashion stuff online and you know. Yeah. And if you're going to New York Fashion Week already, it'll totally happen. Yeah. Oh my gosh. And your dream, is it Diesel or is there a bigger one that you'd want to do? Prada. Prada.

Oh Prada yeah. I think that they're pretty easy. Well not easy. Yeah yeah yeah. But I'm easy as in like they do influencers too like they've done Avani like Charli D'Amelio so I'm like okay. Oh really? Yeah. Charli D'Amelio did Prada? I mean they are like very high celebrity status. Of course yeah. Oh that's amazing. But they're also like influencers so. Oh yeah I

I had a friend, he used to have a drama channel. He still does. His name's Nick Snyder. He modeled for Prada, but I don't even think he did it because he was an influencer. He just was like a model. But I was like, he's like on the runway. Yeah. He's like my age. He's a little older, but that definitely, I think will happen for you for sure. Oh my God. What is like a daily, like a weekly routine for you? Like do you go out with your friends every day, every night? I don't know.

I go out a lot. Every night you think? No, not every night. I try to keep it to Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays. Okay. But sometimes it leads into Mondays and I'm just like, okay. Oh my God. So where do you go? Like West Hollywood or? Okay. Are you like a dancer? Do you go to the dancing clubs? I'm not a dancer, but I would just like, you know, I feel like I can't dance because I'm like so long and skinny. I can't. You just hang out and be cute. Exactly that. Okay. Is the Abbey still a vibe? I love being started out. You know West Hollywood? You know where those are all the gays are at? Yeah. So they're just like.

And they all love the young ones. They see them. They live for the young ones, the young, tall, skinny ones. Yeah. It's like a fetish to them. And I love like when a guy comes up to me and like he wants me and I'm just like, no. Oh my God. Do you just love the whole. I live for that no moment. Like no. I never had those moments in life. I wish I could have been you. Kind of like a, what do they call that? Like a little flirt, like a little tease. Oh, I love. Yeah. Okay. Okay.

Okay. There's nothing wrong with that. I kind of love it. Do you go out with like your girlfriends? Yeah. Girlfriends. I don't like going. I have gone out with like a few guys where it's like, oh, like let's go out to like parties together. Yeah. But I like went out with my girlfriends way better. Oh, I loved going to WeHo. I lived. That was like my favorite thing to do. Is the Abby still a vibe or no? That's the vibe if you want to get your stuff stolen. Okay.

Yeah. It used to be so trendy and cool. I know. I heard that Abbey was the place, but now it's like the place where like people get their shit stolen. Oh my God. Now it's like Heart, Beaches. Heart. Beaches is popping. Oh yeah. Beaches was big like a couple, like a few years ago. Yeah. Heart is new though. It's always packed. Heart is new. Yeah. But Heart is like popping after three o'clock because that's the only club that stays like. Oh my God. Heart and Mickey stay open, but Heart is the one. Is that Lance's club? Do you know if Lance owns Lance Bass? Do you know Lance Bass? Are you old enough? You don't know who that is? Oh my God.

He's not from NSYNC. He was the gay one in NSYNC. Oh my. This is wild to me sometimes. Wow. We need a whole segment of like, do you know this person? Wait, can we? That's crazy. Oh my God. You can name a few. I'll feel old. Do you know MAC Cosmetics? Please. Yes. That was like everybody's go-to. No, I know MAC. RIP MAC. Love MAC. Are they even still around? I don't know. I never see anyone talking about it. Do you use their product? Yeah, of course. No, I've never seen you use it.

What's the hot products now? Charlotte Tilbury. Too Faced has honestly been around for a long time and they're still really hot. They are? We love Too Faced. I used to love their packaging. I never see them stuff. Are you into like the celebrity ones like Fenty, Rare, Rem? Love Rare. Rem, not really. Love Fenty. Okay. No love to Sweetener Foundation. I haven't tried it. Oh, really? I kind of live for it. That's the one I wear. I love that one. Really? I've never tried it. I should try it. Everybody keeps telling me to try it but I haven't tried it.

I don't like the packaging. I'm not a silver metallic-y. Yeah. It's basic. Yes. But silver is like Fenty to me. I don't know. I absolutely hate the eyeshadows that are like long and skinny. Like, you know, those little triangle words. It's like a little tiny palette. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. I want a big eyeshadow with a ton of colors. That's what I live for. I don't even think. Natasha Denona is the only one I can think of. Natasha Denona, yeah. Yeah, it has like the big ones. Yeah. Do you like the Mario ones? I love the Mario ones too. But it's basic packaging. It is basic. Black and white. But I kind of live for that basic packaging too. Okay. So certain ones are okay. I really like like.

Yeah, sleek. Yeah. Certain ones. Okay. Yeah, like the white. I think just because it's white and I love the color white. One size is a slay. It's pink. One size, love pink and red. I know. I hate that it's pink because when I come out with my brand someday, I want it to be pink. Well, I feel like by then it could be like almost like under the same umbrella. Pitch fell off in the minor background. Yeah. Yeah.

You can do a little spin off of it. I'm on their campaign. I'm like, well. You have to do like pink like glitter. I have Patrick in my campaign. He's all old. No. He's another one that doesn't age. By the time that I'm like, you know. That would be everything though. That would be everything. Yeah. It makes sense. It'd be full circle beauty at any age. Yeah. Yeah.

Wait, that's going to be the, yeah. Yeah, it's kind of everything. And you'll be looking like you do now at 35. You'll still be just so young and beautiful. With all the new injections that they have going on, yeah. Yeah. I look at filters nowadays and it's like, you know the filters that make you look all filthy crazy? I look at them and I'm like, that's what I'm going to look like when I'm like 40. I wish, maybe one day they'll do the filters where that's what you look like in real life. You know what I mean? Like you could just pick a filter and it does your makeup for you or something like that to look like a filter. Probably, someday. You never know. Probably like the spray-on mechanism that's like...

spray makeup on you. Oh, that would be amazing. They used to have spray. Like, Dior, I think, used to have, like, spray foundation. Oh, yeah, they do. They softened that. I don't know why, though. That was so iconic. Because it was messy. Like, who was using that good? No one. Everybody was using it, though, but they were using it, like... Right, that's what I'm saying. It wasn't, like, you just spray it on. I think that's what they were trying to go for, but then they saw people doing it, like, on their hands. It's like, yeah.

I guess. Yeah. Did you ever watch any of the girlies like Jaclyn Hill, Laura Lee? I did. Jaclyn, not very much Laura Lee. Okay. All the people I would watch back then was like Patrick, Louis, Bretman, Jaclyn. Tati? Okay. Was she a beauty person? I don't know. I think she was more for the older girls. Okay. She's a beauty at an age. I did watch James for a while. Oh,

Oh yeah. Do you know him? Yeah. Well we yeah we're mutuals. Yeah. Yeah. He was really big too. I guess he's still big. I don't know. I don't follow beauty people so I just like don't know. I'm trying to think who else. Were those all the beauty? Oh she's very tall. Blondie. Oh Nikki Tutorials. Nikki Tutorials. Yeah. Love her. She was great too. I guess not

still around. They're all still around. Making palettes. I feel like they all have like... God knows what they're doing. No, I think they all like have their own brands now, honestly. I really do. I think they all do. Which is like wild to me. I'm like, that's so expensive to like start a brand and manage a brand. I mean, I guess they're all doing good. Which I guess is...

I follow the drama of it. I remember when like beauty world was in drama. Then it's like kind of exciting. Well, I think it's because I just saw a podcast of Manny's and Manny and Laura were doing a podcast together and they were just saying that like their beauty brand's not doing good. Oh, right. They were saying they put all the money back into it. Yeah, they were saying all the money that they put into it, it just kind of comes right back. Like it's just like, you know. I love the honesty there because honestly. I love that they're being very honest. Yeah. Because that's what you would think all these people would go, that's how we were too with like your clothing line. I just put all the money in and we'd like lost money so I wasn't making it. How about the skincare? Um.

That one I partnered with a local person. Oh, okay. And it's still really good. It's still available ASMR scan on Amazon. I use it, I swear by it. I used to have like really bad acne, but it really actually works. Your skin got so much better. Yeah. How, with that skincare? With a bar of soap, I swear by it. Moses can tell you, anyone can tell you, this is all I use and my skin is like so clear. I used to do Proactiv and all those. Because my skin acne, I do laser treatment now. What? Your skin is like so flawless. Well, because of that laser treatment. Did you have acne? Yeah. Oh.

I still get like, you know, if I take off my makeup, acne scars everywhere. I will send you this. The whole kit is great, but the bar of soap is like, seriously, it's all I use. It's like life changing. I will like sew down when you try it. Oh my God, it's so good. But I do like this acne treatment where like they laser each pimple and it's like after two days it's gone. But I'm young, so I'm like obviously acne prone. They're just going to keep coming back. That's why I'm going to stop. I had acne up until I was like 32 and then this like...

bar of soap saved my life and mine was bad I like cystic yeah I'm scared that I'm gonna keep getting acne forever I'm like I can't no I hate it no I feel like it might be just like a but your skin is like but I guess yeah the lady who I partnered with she does those two she does like the zapping of the zit so if you get a big one it goes down in like a day she's very good yeah but that kind she was already had a business so I kind of just partnered with that but everything else I put the money into so I like when people are honest and like well just put a

just put it back into the... That means they love it. I love honest bitches. I really do. I wish I could be super honest online, but, you know, I'm a makeup girly. I think your persona's good online, how it is. I am. No, I try to, but honestly, I think they love me because I'm honest, but I'm honest about makeup. Yeah. You know, I don't dig into, like, the drama on it, but it's like, you know. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but I think that's good. It's, like, refreshing. I think that's why I like you because as much as I love the drama, like, it is just nice to just see this, like, boy just...

you know, excited about life. Every day, does she seem happy? And I'm like, here's some makeup. Here's my powders. And I'm like, I love that. Well, that's what I like to put out there. Yeah. No, it's great. Today, or I don't know if it was today or yesterday, you did one and you're like, I love all the powders. Like, when I did Kayla's makeup, she's like, oh my, Kayla, I think you did. Literally, she was like, oh, more powder? I was like, I live for powder. Oh, I only do powder. I only do powder. But that's why her skin is so smooth. Yeah. That's what they don't know. It's the filter look. Yeah. They live for that tuition. I'm like, no.

I don't like it either. I don't like dewey. It's so dumb. No. It looks like, for me, it looks like I'm sweating. It looks, yeah. Yeah. No, I think on everybody. I think it only looks good if your skin is super, super, super clear glass skin. Yeah. If it's like Kim almost Kardashian. Yeah. I live for it. Do we look for that? But it's like, I don't know. Any little bit of texture, it's like, eh. Or the highlight, it goes crazy when they do the light here, here. I don't do highlight. You don't do highlight anymore, do you? No, no, no. Okay, yeah. I don't like highlight anymore. I tried to because I know it was like a thing to do, but. For a while, yeah.

I never really liked it though. In my old videos, you can see, and I only did it for a certain period of time and then I stopped. It can look crazy. Mikayla loves a highlight. I love Mikayla, but she will be doing that later. No, she literally in the video, she was like, no highlight? And I was like, no. That's why. Okay, so how are you doing these collabs? I think it's so impressive. You did Kayla, you did Mikayla. You're like. Me and Mikayla have been mutuals for a long time, like a while actually. So, you know, and then she hit me up and she was like, hey, I love your content. Let's collab. No way. I died. I was like, oh my God.

I was like, oh my God. We've been mutuals for a while and she doesn't DM me back. Oh, yeah. Mikayla, please DM her back. I DM her and I'm like, hey girl, I want to go to my podcast. No, I feel like you guys, you would live for her. She's very chill. No, I love her. She's super chill. She's very dope. I think that she's so massive right now. Like, she has to be careful who she collabs with. You know what I mean? That's what it is. Yeah. Which I don't really give a shit who I collab with. I'm like,

I mean, yeah, the fact that you're like unproblematic and you're here. Oh, there's a few people. Yeah. Really? Yeah. I have been clapping with big people. I just realized that. Oh my God. Huge. Kayla has like 12. Kayla I see everywhere. We're collabing after this again. Oh my gosh. She was like, I want you to do my makeup again. I was like, okay, period. I'm after this. Where did she come from? Cause I see her literally everywhere. She lives for you. You know that, right? Oh,

I love her. Oh, you would love her. I think Antonia Garza just did her makeup and I was just like, oh, it's everything. Oh, I live. She came out of nowhere and I see her everywhere. She's really cool. I think Alexis Oakley did her makeup. I was just like, oh, I see her. I love it. Maybe I could do her makeup. Oh,

No, maybe you could. You get somebody to do it for her off camera. You pretend like it's you. No, I love doing people's makeup because I'm so like black, smoky eye, like silver eyeshadow on the eye. I would do like the overlined lip because like the way I do makeup is like crazy and I love it. I love her so much. We actually literally talk all the time here because we're the same age. We're both 18. No way.

Yeah, we're the same age. Her stories are insane. Like, she gagged me with all the crazy stories. I'm like, girl, yeah. Really? Oh, yeah, because I don't know much about her, like, personality or anything. That's not saying I need to see this bitch on this podcast or on a podcast. Oh, yes. Oh. Her stories are just like, oh, my God.

Your stories are like, I'm actually so, I'm so shook right now because even like from the moment you went in, we were talking 20 minutes before the cameras even started and I was just like, you're a gift of gab and also just like your stories are so interesting. I thought 18 years old, how much life could this person have lived? I've partied so much, honestly. Which is crazy. I kind of live for it because you know how some people are like, oh, like don't party so much when you're young because once you're like 21, like you're going to be partied out. Mm-hmm.

I like that though because then you have more to live. It feels like more. You know what I mean? Totally. People always say by the time they're 21 like the ones that like party. I mean some people just party their whole lives but then they're like I'm tired of it. You know what I mean? But then once they're tired of it maybe at that age I can then go and travel. You know? Oh for sure. Yeah. You can be a travel influencer. A travel girl. Yeah. I feel like

I think it's good. And why you have the energy to go out and like party and do all that. I never partied. I never did, but that's the only time. You never did? No. I live for a party. I'm honestly a very shy person except when it comes to parties. Really? So you'll like go up to strangers and stuff when you go out? Or they come up to you? They come. Yeah. Because you just attract. I mean, do you dress like how do you, when you go out, what do you wear? I'll wear like a, well, on a simple day, a cute little skims top and like some jeans. Is this skims? This is skims. I love it. I hate that they removed the smoothing one.

Oh, really? They did? I didn't know. The smoothing one really like cinches you up. Oh, I love it. It's exactly like this with smoothing. They came out with these ones instead and it's so sheer. Like you can see my tits. And I don't like that. They are so sheer. The Swarovski one that just came out too is like everything is so sheer. Oh, you tried it on? No, I haven't bought it. Oh, but you see it online. It's so sheer. I don't like the sheer. Yeah. I don't live for the sheer. And I'm like, even their like bodycon dresses, I always have to wear like pasties. And now they have a bra with the nipples. I'm like, I'm trying to hide them, not show them. Those are wild. What do you think about that? At first, I was like.

At first I was like, oh my God, this is stuff. But then I talked to some of the people who were like. I kind of live for it. Honestly, if I was in school and I was a girl, I would wear those to school. Yeah, totally. Because I hate that like in school, I would always also get in trouble for dress code. Oh.

you know, dress code. So I live for it because then like, you know, they kind of like puts the old weird men that are the teachers in school in their place. Cause it's like, I'm wearing a bra, you know, if these weird fake nipples turn you on, then that's your problem. Like I have a trauma with teachers looking at my bras and stuff. So I feel like it's so gross. It disgusts me. I wish everybody can just go to school, wear whatever they want. Well,

we didn't put a disclaimer for some teachers because I always say that too and they're just always like, not all teachers, my, all my teachers were. Yeah, I had a lot of trauma with it and people don't like when I talk about it but I'm just like, it was just a little, I don't know. I don't get that like, showing my stomach, what does that have to do with anything? Yeah. What does that have to do with like teaching me? Like that makes no sense. Yeah. And then I hear whenever they say it's a distraction, to who? To you? To you, yeah. Because none of the kids are, I'm going to be a distraction regardless.

Yeah. You're a great distraction though. You really are. Like when you, when you walk into like a room, do people just all like look at you, like eyes on you? Do you love it? Or do you ever get, do you ever get insecure? I want to say yeah, because they're going to be like, oh my God, you're so like. No, I know when I walk into a room. You're so full of yourself, but I'm really not like, right? They're like, yeah, no, I'm kidding, no. You know, I feel like you know. Like when I walk into a room, I know people look, you know? It's like,

Yeah. And do you get insecure about it or are you like, I love it? No, I kind of live for it. I think that's why I like going out so much because I love attention. Yeah. So it's like, okay, this guy's not going to give me attention. I'm going to go out and get attention from somebody else. Interesting. I love attention, but then sometimes I don't love it when I'm out. Like, I don't know. It's like weird. Sometimes I don't like when too many people look at me and then I get like weird about it. I think I like attention online. I don't think I know if I like it in person, but you like it in person. But what lately I've been noticing, attention is all on my body. And you don't like that?

I live for it but then to a certain extent because then I start thinking and I'm like maybe I'm just overthinking but then it's like okay well what happens when I get big am I still gonna get that wait like fat yeah like what happens you're gonna get fat okay well let's say I gain a little weight right you know what happens then there's a whole genre for that too people still gonna be like oh my god like sickening you know so I think because they see me and they'll be like oh my god and they'll reach for my waist and it's like well sickening up here too like look at my face you know right right interesting so well I

think that's like a thing you have to think of later down the line just enjoy this right now the snatch that's exactly what I'm doing I'm like I'm gonna just enjoy what I have for now and just you know and if I don't think it'll happen to you but if it does you know you'll find someone who's into that like anyway I'm getting a BBL I'm getting no I'm getting no yeah I got a BBL I don't I'm not a hater on it I need another one I did not know you had a BBL your last podcast you said that I was like

In 2017, if you look up like Trisha Paytas' BBL, like the pictures when it first happened, I was like, I gained weight. I had a kid and all this stuff like that. So I gained weight since then. But this was like so snatched up flat. But you had a kid and you're still like freaking amazing. Oh, thank you. I definitely like gained a lot of weight. But you know, I'm like, I'm learning with it now until my olympic. But yeah, the BBL was everything. Until olympic. Until olympic. Until I get the courage up for that. But yeah, I don't know.

I don't know I'm not about I'm not I'm not against surgery at all but me neither I live for it honestly yeah I feel like when you're older though don't do it now cause no of course not no I look at my face now and I smile I have so many smile lines and I smile oh my god that's don't lose those though I know I know I don't wanna lose them though I'm really like I'm not gonna I'm never gonna get Botox until like 22 or something yeah yeah then you can do like pre-emptive but I do I do my smile even with my makeup like it creases all the time but it's like at the same time I'm like who cares like I smile you know I'm a smiling person you wanna see the smile lines yeah it looks really good you have a great smile oh thank you are your teeth real?

Can I ask that? I don't know. No, yeah, they're real. Oh, they look great. They look like veneers. No, this is so funny because... I ask everybody. I'm like, maybe it's not appropriate. No, it's so funny because we just got our teeth whitened yesterday. Oh.

And we were looking at my teeth and we're like, they're so white. They're so white. I have a video of me saying people are going to think I have veneers or something. Like they're white. That's so funny. So you ask me that. They're real. It's like, oh yeah. Are they sensitive? Are you sensitive to food? We, yeah, this morning they were pretty sensitive. Last night they were very sensitive. Yeah, because the white t-shirts do that too. It's good now. It's not really. They look amazing. Your teeth look so good. Did you get the hookup on it? Yeah, I did. I love it. I love the perks of that. Yeah. I love also like going out to parties with like the clubs and they're like,

You can just get a table. Oh my gosh. And you're like, will you give me a table for promo? Yeah, of course. Wow. I love that. You're officially like celebrity status for sure. No, I never get those. I've never gotten a free anything. Like I can't remember. Well, you probably just didn't try. No, I've tried. Never. No free anything. It's fine. I'm okay with it. Maybe not the right places. Yeah. Not at McDonald's. I don't get free anything. They know me. They see me. Are you trying at McDonald's?

Do you like pull up and be like, hey, I'm Trisha Paytas. Do you want to give me a prize? No, but they know who I am, so I'm like, can I get like a free something? And never. Have you ever had anybody be like, oh my God, you're Trisha. And then they give you free food? Look,

happen at like sprinkles or something but I immediately I give them like a $30 tip and then I end up paying more than the cupcake because I feel bad they're like teenagers paying for my food and I'm like that's the one downside about like being you know an influencer now is when I go out to eat I have to tip real good and I do tip real good of course yeah always tip good but like now like I feel like they know me so it's like I feel bad not giving you like a shit ton of money oh for sure I'm like I'll do like 50% for the tip because I'm just like because you know they film stuff now too for TikTok so you're like one time I put zero because I tipped in cash and then

Someone filmed it as if I gave them no tip. Okay, actually, no, the only time that I will not tip is when I'm, like, getting Cold Stone and at the cashier, it's like, tip. Girl, you're, like, typing on the little computer. I worked at McDonald's. Like, all you do is this and that. I know. Tipping is everywhere. I only tip when it's, like, waitering and somebody is, like, you know, on your ass. If it says a tip, I tip. If I'm like, I guess

I have to tip at this restaurant. I know. I just, I tip everywhere. No, if it's on that little thing and it's like, I just, they just served me my ice cream. It's a hard no for me. I'm like, no. At Starbucks too. They're like, it's going to ask you a question. And the question is like, tipping. No, I pay on the Starbucks app so they don't ask me that anymore. Okay, okay. Because I'm always like, well,

okay you're not looking at it I was just like well didn't you just make like this is your job no like you just I love the Starbucks people do I tip them I tip them for sure but it is it is a little awkward I'm always just like okay I guess I'll do the five dollar tip instead of the dollar tip five dollars is wild it's like the cost of my drink I've only done a dollar here and there whenever they compliment my nails but that's it okay you give the extra dollar I don't know that is my guilt in life it's just like I'm like do they even get the money

You hope so. I don't know. But I always think, like, again, I feel like karma, money karma, like if you like spend a lot more comes your way. You know, the more you spend, the more you give, you know, get, you know. I don't believe in that. I do. I'm telling you it's true. The more I give out, I tell them this, money's a flow. I don't believe in that because of my mom. My mom is a giver. She will give. And everything she has and leave herself in the dust, you know, to somebody. And I'm like, she gave so much. And it's like, I mean, she has me, but that's it. That's the gift. That's the lottery. She won it. Well.

Also, it could come back. Does she play, like, the lottery ever? I was like, maybe one day she'll win the bill. I play the lottery all the time. One day, yeah, but she gave so much that it's like, girl, I literally have to tell her, stop giving people stuff. Like, no. Like, the way I see it, it's so sad, but it's like, in reality, if you want to survive in this world, you kind of have to be selfish. I'm a very selfish person. Are you?

interesting. Well, I do have my moments where it's like, oh, like you're so sweet. You know what I mean? Yeah. Or like, I'll have some of my friends be like, oh, I didn't know you were like, like, I do have a heart. They will say like, oh, you really do have a heart. And I'm like, well, what did you think? You know? Yeah. But I am a very selfish person. Interesting. I consider myself selfish in a lot of things, but I feel with money, I like to give, you know what I mean? And I love money. We're tourists, so I love to make money, but I also love to give it out. I love to make money. I love seeing the numbers go up. You'll always find ways to make money. I will work as much as you.

Oh my god I tell everybody that Yeah I'm always like I'm a tourist Like give me a bag of peanuts And I'll make money from it Oh yeah I'm always hustling That's something about me I do cameos all day long I'll do 20 today I was in elementary school Selling bracelets Making money Oh yeah I had my own business In elementary I love that Because that's what I was too I was selling lemonade In middle school I was selling scrunchies I was making bangs Oh my gosh You know if I was a fashion designer I could sew too So I was sewing scrunchies But I'd stick my ass up I made like 30-40 scrunchies And I would go to school Pass them on They would sell out In like seconds

That's impressive. I'm sorry I'm sold out, honey. Oh my God, I love that. Wait till next week and I will spend my weekend like making more scrunchies. Oh my God, that is entrepreneur right there. What? At the time. This is when James was at his peak. Oh. Sister scrunchies. Oh my God. He sues you for a copyright. Right?

He's like, give me that $40 you made. He's like, let me know how many scrunchies you sold and give me half of it. That's why. So you were like a James Stanton. Were you a sister? Not that hard. Not like merch. I would watch his videos. I loved it. Everybody was saying sister at the time. Everyone was. Did he start it? Yeah. Well, okay. He didn't invent sister, but that was like his thing. Sister. Okay. Because he sold the merch. He doesn't say it anymore. He talks about how he doesn't say it anymore because he wants to rebrand. Right. Because you're older. You have to stop. Yeah. You're older. Yeah. You can only do so much for their needs. And you just capitalize that on for like your Halloween.

No, he's obviously, I have no idea. Is he like 30 now? I have no idea. Um, I think he's 25. God, he seems, you know, people have been around for so long, but they're probably like teenagers when they started. Yeah. His story is crazy though, like being a cover girl and stuff like, you know what I mean? That is kind of wild. Yeah. Yeah. I forgot. Well, that was his thing. He was like the first cover girl, which is so iconic. Yeah. No, totally. The first male cover girl. Yeah. I feel like that's something you'll do. You'll be the first male doing something that traditionally women would do. They're so inclusive nowadays. You think that like every company. Maybe the first influencer of something, you know? Yeah, that's true. Yeah.

Yeah. I kind of like it though now that they use like men for things that necessarily weren't like men things. Oh my God. I want to be on Skims too. That's another thing. I would die to be on Skims. Oh. I'm always on Skims. I have people all the time tell me like, oh, I bought Skims because of you. You look great. I knew right away. I'm a Skims girly. So I saw right away. I love Skims. I buy everything. Like they have a new furry holiday collection coming out tomorrow and I'm going to get that. I saw that too. Oh my God. Did you see Kai? Oh, it sold out.

I'm so excited. I bought like three items and I regret not buying everything. Are these Kai? No. Okay. That's so funny because before I left, I was like, I think my Kai package is here. Should we go get it? And I could just like dress. I was going to do the Kai like pants and I was going to put the Kai like the backless top over this Skims top. I feel like that would have been cute, right? Yeah. But I was like, maybe that's too extra. I could wear that out somewhere. I like this. I wish you would have told me. I have a Skims that same color. We could have been matching. That's great actually. Do Skims have a male modeling the like female clothing? No, they don't.

That would be everything. That would be good, though. Because your body does. It, like, does so well for the skims. Yeah, you know what I mean? I think just in general, because a lot of boys like skims. Yeah. Because they did a men's skims, and I got it for him, but it's boring. It's like t-shirts. I like now that they're doing it for boys, because I know the boys are getting jealous. Yeah, but it's basic. It's not like the slay that, like, skims us. Like, this is great. And this looks like, to me, I wouldn't... And it's so funny how something so basic can be so, like...

It is crazy. Even like the basic t-shirts when I wear like a black shirt, everyone's like, I love your shirt. I'm like, oh my God, it's crazy. This is what's in right now. Like a simple tiny top and like big pants. Yeah. I know. I definitely copy all the Kardashians. I get good American. I get everything. Yeah. Or Fashion Nova. That's what I have. Oh, is that Fashion Nova? Skims and Fashion Nova go plus size. So that's what I love. You know, they go up to like 5X and I think that's everything. But you should model for Skims. I love that they go really tiny too. What is this one? XS? 2XS.

Two XL. We're like on the same spectrum. Wait, no, literally. I live for that. We're the exact same. It's so funny. So what's a makeup trend that you like absolutely hate that you think should die? The strawberry makeup. Oh my God. I love that you just did it so quick. What's strawberry makeup? Oh,

Hailey Bieber did it and it was just like more blush. That's it. Wait, why is she so obsessed with strawberries? I don't know. She's also obsessed with blueberries because she splashed some blueberry sprinkles on her white nails and said, blueberry milk, glossy nails. Oh, I remember. I was into those though. I'm not going to lie. I tried to do the chocolate glaze and it looks like gunmetal. I'm like, okay. Oh, chocolate glaze. There you go. She said that to you. Oh, okay. Yeah. I keep up with the girlies. Also, what did she say? Something about like chocolate glaze, lip lined, like glossy lips, something like that. She comes up with the craziest things. Oh, okay. Yeah, she's wild. And I was like, girl, those are...

Chola lips like my mom my mom did that long time my mom still does that she's like no yeah maybe she was a chola we don't know chicana lips is what the real name is oh chicana I know chicana yeah you love chicana yo soy chicana yo soy plata you know I have that video of you saved in my phone where it was like es viernes y lo cuerpo esta vez I think it was something like that yeah it kind of flopped I deleted it I was like oh man I kind of flopped oh thank god I saved it because I lived for it I'm going to post that every Friday now just because you deleted it

I love learning Spanish. I like you. I like that you like learning. Oh, flaca, yes. Flaca. I'm flaca, too. No, yes, you are flaca. Yes, I live. Can you learn tengo cuerpazo? Okay, cuerpazo means I have body. Cuerpazo. Cuerpazo. Yes. Cuerpazo. So, yo soy cuerpazo. No, no, no. Yo tengo cuerpazo. Tengo means I have. I have a body. Yo tengo cuerpazo. I love it. So, in Spanish, you know, they'll say like, oh, like...

She has a cuerpazo. Cuerpazo. Ella tiene cuerpazo. I love that. Like, they'll tell me, I ate, él tiene bien cuerpazo, you know? Do you like when people say that? I love it. Oh, my gosh. I love his badge more than whenever he's like, oh, he's skinny. Yeah, I know. Yeah, yeah. But when they say cuerpazo, cuerpazo is different. It's not just like flaco. Like, you know, it's like, you have body. You know? I like that. You do. You have body. You definitely have body. I love a skinny, but you have body.

for sure. Thank you. I love it. Skims, call him right now. No, literally. What's a makeup trend that you wish would come back? I think the brows. The 2016 brows. I like those brows a lot, honestly. Is that what you have now? Is that like the thickums? Yeah. Oh. Like filled in? Yeah, no, but filled in because you know how everybody does so brows. People would go crazy. I have to do my gloss. Like your brows right now too. Yeah, they're thick. But you know what I mean? Yeah. Like they're very 2016 but not like thick. No,

No, I did it to match you. We pulled up a photo of you today. Oh, gosh. Really? Yeah, and I was like, we got to do a cut crease. We got to do this. I tried to match the vibe with the person. Oh, period. Oh, my God. I couldn't even match your outfit because of your body. I noticed you did a nude lip liner with a pink. Yeah, I was trying to do the cut crease. Are you live in Miami? They are Jenny69, I think. Oh, okay. Yeah, and we never do full either, but we saw yours eyebrows. But the brow, not exactly 2016 brow, but the perfect brow.

Perfect brow. You know what I mean? You know how now there's like soapy and like brushed up. Oh, I can't do that. I don't like that. I hate that. I love a thin brow like the 90s, but the brushed up I can't do. Do you follow any of the beauty girlies on TikTok? Well, I guess Mikaela, Kayla. I do, but there's a lot. There's so many that I follow, but because I kind of have to.

Oh, right. You said you don't like just enjoy it. I really don't watch a lot of beauty content. You know what I mean? But I do it because, you know, it's in my industry. So we're going to be going to the same events. You know, I don't want to be like them following me. Who's this person? Yeah. Right. I want to know. I've had a few like that. Really? I follow you, but you don't follow me. And I'm like, girl, you didn't have to say that. So then I go home and I follow her back just because. But I don't even like their content. And it's just. You're polite. Yeah, I'm polite. I always just pretend I know people. I'm like, I love you too. I don't know how you do that because I will see someone like.

Well. That's really my reaction. I'm like, yeah. Sometimes it backfires. Sometimes it's like, what's your favorite video? Which I would never ask someone what their favorite videos are. That's why I'm scared to be like, I love your videos. Because they'll be like, oh, really? And I'm like, okay.

that I've had that happen so many times where people are like what's your favorite and I was like what I feel like they should catch on and know that we're lying yeah be nice it's like catch on girl I would never someone's like I love you and I'm like oh okay what do you love about me like that's such a weird follow up like when somebody says they love my videos I'm just like oh thank you you know I don't say like oh really what video yeah yeah why do you like yeah like just asking 5,000 questions yeah and did you ever do the makeup trend where you do all the foundation the Meredith one where you just like that

video went viral and you know what she never commented on my video she never followed me my video is like the most viewed video of copying like her technique it's like 20 million views right now

Did it work out good? It did. It looked really flawless. It was just very heavy and thick and after a while, cakey. Yeah. It can be a lot. Oh, that's so interesting. She didn't comment. Maybe she was like, he might come for me. Maybe I did it better. She's like a model. She models for like Miu Miu or something. So maybe she thinks she's going to come for the modeling brand. All the beauty girls are like models I feel like on Instagram.

They're also like Gorg and... Yeah, I think a lot of the beauty girls, that's because they want to be more than just beauty. So they try to like... But they start... That's what I'm trying to do. Yeah. Even now, that's why I'm like, I want to do more than just beauty and modeling. I want to do like acting too. What's your dream role? Wiccan from Marvel. Do you watch Marvel? No.

No. Okay. Did you see that? Superhero. Yeah. Superhero. Did you see that superhero I did where I was up in the air and there was like lightning all around me? Did you just post it today or did I just see it today? It was like, maybe you just saw it today, but I posted it like on Halloween. Oh yeah. Which is probably like only a week ago. But he's a character. He hasn't been, his storyline is like getting to that point where they're going to need to like need somebody to do that role. Oh, no one's done it yet. Nobody's done it yet. You know, but I would die to do that role. Oh,

Oh my gosh. And I know it's possible because there's another girl that did this. She was Miss Marvel. And she said her story of how she got to that point, like the acting job, she said it was her first time. She's never acted before. She just did the role. They loved her. They didn't. She didn't. That was her first ever role, first ever time applying. What is it called?

Like auditioning. Auditioning, that. That's going to soap you. So I was like, okay, so it is possible. Oh, a thousand percent. A lot of times I feel like they cast unknown people. And I think people are tired of hearing and seeing like big names. Like, oh, we liked when they cast like unknown people in roles. I think I like when they cast unknown people too. Unknown as far as acting. I think it's fun. You know what I mean? Yeah. You get tired of seeing the same people. Oh, I would love to see you act. I think people are like, honestly, we're getting more into that era. People get bored easily. That's true. And I love like the same people. And you know, they're, you know, not that I care about Nepo babies, but people are like, oh, the Nepo babies. We want to see something fresh and new. Yeah.

You're like the opposite of an Epo baby. I am. Which is like great. I grew up very poor. I grew up sharing a room with my family. Oh, I did see this in a video. You said that there was like two bedrooms. It was like you, then your cousins were in the other one. Yeah. And sometimes your dad would come. The biggest house we ever lived in was a three bedroom house. But it wasn't just us. It was like my cousin in one room sharing a room. And then like my oldest brother and his daughter and his...

baby mama in that room and then me and my mom and my other brother in like the other room. And your dad sometimes. My dad sometimes when he would come into our lives. And you would all share one room. Yeah. For a period of time it was like that. Yeah. Because I saw in the video you're like it was like not even the size of the room that you were in that you were sitting in. Yeah. Like it was like half the size of my closet that I have now.

Oh, wow. Which is kind of insane. Yeah. I love that I could just go and sit in my closet. Yeah. I've always dreamt of a walk-in closet. Oh, isn't that the best? And you're 18. I would go to like my rich, the ass house and then they'd have like all these like huge walk-ins. Oh my God. And now you're living it. I'm obsessed with having those kind of closets, you know? Oh,

man and you're 18 and you already achieved that that's like amazing do you live alone now i live alone then do you love it because you did share rooms living alone i hate sharing rooms and i think that's why because i grew up sharing rooms all the time yeah i love being alone i just love i love eating alone i love doing everything alone watching tv alone yeah yeah just have your big space yeah and then when i do want to go out and talk to people i'll go out to parties yeah yeah you get your social in and they can come home i used to like that and i'm drained and then there and then i'll like

What's it called? Like get my battery up. Yeah. Recharge. Recharge. Be alone. Yeah. Oh, I love it. So how did you get, how did you get from sharing a room to now having the walk-in closet? Like where was your success? It's so funny because the way I started with my makeup, I had this ghetto little desk. I had these tiny turtles at the time, baby turtles, because I wanted them so bad. And my mom somehow got them for me, even though we didn't

have money. Tiny turtles? Is this from the Santialli or what do you call it? Gajones? Gajones. Yeah. Tiny little turtles. The turtles from Gajones. Gajones. Yeah. I love those turtles. So they were there and they had this heating lamp. Okay. So I put my camera down and I took that heating lamp and used it as my light. You can just imagine how hot it was. Oh my God. But that was my first setup. If you go back to my very first video, it's a warm light. Wow. That's because the light was like yellow. That was my first setup. Then my dad built me a vanity. Oh.

Oh, okay. That was your good memory. Those are the good memories. That's nice. He one time even built me a tree house. Wow. I told you, he's a very smart guy. He was a, what's it called? Handy man. He was very that. To be smart and be handy, sometimes those don't come hand in hand, so that's cool. I think not very smart, but more intelligent.

Okay. Yeah. I don't think he could do math. God knows. I don't know. I don't talk to him. But yeah. I can't do math. But I think I'm smart. I'm intelligent. But I cannot do math. Don't even like bring numbers around me. I see numbers. I see a lot of words. And I get. I'm the same way. Yeah. I don't get it at all. I send it to her. She'll read it for me. Change. Yeah. I'm like. I don't know. That's the thing about acting. Is I'm scared of like seeing the script. And being like. Like memorizing. You know. Right. But there's different ways to learn it. Without having to read or memorize. True. I have somebody like saying it to me. And then. I you know. I'm a very visual learner. So yeah. Yeah.

But that's how I started. He built me my vanity. And for a while, I was in that room with the vanity. And then we moved out. And then we lived in an apartment, which actually in this recent apartment before I moved to LA, it was my brother in his own room. And I asked them to have the master bedroom. I was like,

That's what I love about my brother and my mom is like they believed in me. You know what I mean? I told them this is my job. I'm going to be in the room all the time. Like my brother has a job. You're not even going to be in your room most of the time. My mom has a job too. Like you're a girl. You know what I mean? Right. And I told my mom, I was like, me and you can share the bedroom with my mom. But she would just sleep in the living room. Oh my God.

And they let you have the master bed to like do your work and stuff. Do my work. So my vanity was in there and that's how I got viral was in that bedroom. Wow. And so you were making money just like off TikTok. Were you getting brand deals or? Okay. I didn't start getting brand deals until towards the end of high school. Okay. Wow. I think I was like at like five. I blew up pretty quick honestly. I was like at 500. Not as quick as it.

like everybody else but like no that's very fast 500,000 followers and i was barely getting like you know brand deals which is weird because now there's like people that have 20 grand followers and they'll get brand deals and i'm like i don't know how they did it but i didn't know i see that with 20k followers and like i get a thousand dollars i'm like i wish someone gave me a thousand dollars i was like i was at 500,000 charging 100 for one video i'll take 100 now yeah i'll take anything yeah so it's like oh you don't get brand deals anymore it's like here they're more for the podcast yeah like tiktok maybe i don't

Here and there I do. I don't know. Maybe I'm too old. I aged out a bit. She needs makeup. That's how they get all the... Huh? Makeup is the spot for the money. I can't do makeup. Maybe I'll... Yeah, I know. Like, Mikaela always gets the Revlon. Did you do the telescopic? Did you get that brand deal? No, no. Everyone was getting that. Did you try it? I did try it. Actually, no, I didn't. No, not the one Mikaela did. Okay. Do you think she was wearing a falsie? It's because they have so many mascaras. I asked her. She said no. Did you? She said no.

then I believe it. I was like, why would she like you? I was like, forgive him, forget it, girl. I don't care. Like, yeah. I love that you asked her. I asked her, yeah. I feel like that's why she doesn't want to do podcasts. I feel like she's scared people would ask her. I could edit it out. I'm like, just be honest. I don't care. But I was like, were you wearing a falsie? And then I even said, are you sure? Yeah. And she's like, yeah. She's like, I swear I was not wearing a falsie. So I was like, okay. Okay, that's the tea. I was like, her to your folks. She told her own friend she wasn't wearing a falsie. Wow. Okay, I believe it. I feel like, why would she like, because was it on camera or off camera? I was like, so you just tightlined and, you know, did that. And I was like, she was like, yeah. I was like,

I was like, okay. Wow. Oh, no, it was off camera. Yeah, it was off camera. Wow. People, you know what? People got so mad at her for it. It was like wild. I was like this girl. Yeah. I was like, you know what? I was like, I hope they give her another check on top of that because she blew that mascara up. They should.

so hard to find. I went to every Target because I was like, I'm going to try it because it was viral and I couldn't find it anywhere. So she blew it up. She sold that out. For a while, I was like, this has to be a PR stunt. I was like, for a while. Yeah. You couldn't pay that. I love that she came back and didn't say anything too. I was like, everything. I live for that. God, I want to come back that way.

That's like the best way to come back, honestly. Yeah, just not. And I think she even did like a little, she said like, oh, I think the way she came back, she started off her video by saying, let's all talk about the elephant in the room. Right. And then she says something else that doesn't have anything to do with the mascara. Iconic. Iconic. Literally iconic. I love it. I feel like only now influence me in a way that I have to address every little thing. I had a Starbucks in my TikTok the other day and I guess we're canceling. So I didn't know Starbucks was canceled. I was like,

I know, yeah. You have to be really careful nowadays. You really just don't know. Yeah. I don't know anything. And so I, people will tell me. There's a lot of makeup brands now that are getting canceled because, yeah. Yeah. It's crazy. I was like, oh my God. No. What do I review? What do I not review? That's why I asked her. She does all the research. It's wild. I can't keep up with it. I just apologize for everything. I'm just like, I'm so sorry. In advance. You're really good at saying sorry. I never say sorry. Oh.

Because you don't have to. I have to say sorry all the time. No, but like even to my family, like it hurts me to say sorry. What? Oh my gosh. You were wild. I'm like, it just won't come out. Yeah, I'm like sorry. Really? I say sorry forever. I say sorry to you 5,000 times a day. I'm like, I'm so sorry. I'm so dumb. Like I felt so bad. I was just like. I never say sorry. If you get a sorry from me, it's because I really meant it because I never say sorry. I apologize even if someone else is wrong because I just feel awkward and guilty for everything. Yeah. It's like so sorry.

I want to come across nice and everyone comes across mean so I'm just I just apologize I'm just like well it's mean you know. Really? People think you come across mean? Yeah. People do and I don't know. You just sometimes can't help it. I think people think I'm mean. They think I'm mean. Why do you think that?

I think you have like an air to you, but not in a bad way. Sometimes I might seem mean, but I'm obviously joking. Like, you know what I mean? I don't know. That's what I love about my following is they understand my joke. And a lot of the times I will meet my followers and they're just like me. Like they joke around just like me. That's what I love because my followers are just like me. You know what I mean? They watch me because they're also like me. That's what I love too. I love that about the internet. Like I meet people that look like me. I think it's my confidence though. Wait, what? My confidence. Like the way I walk in the room, like my tall, skinny, pretty, you know, so people are like, oh, he's a bitch.

you know but i'm not i think that's what it is i think there's like this pretty air and i think people just be confident so but i think people think just because somebody's pretty they're mean but that's not everybody i always think that right the way me i have my other pretty friend i'm a pretty girls you know the way we see it is pretty girls shouldn't be mean to each other because they're pretty right they're mean to the ugly ones that's the way exactly all the pretty girls are mean to me so now i'm friends with pretty girls because you're too pretty

That's why I like to think, too. I think it was too... No, that was definitely not the case. No, it definitely is. I think it's because I was a little sausage and they were just, like, tall and beautiful and all that stuff. That's another thing. A lot of girls think that they're better. Always. The skinny ones always think they're better, which I get. I get it. If I was skinny, I probably would have the biggest ego in the world. Yeah, you're skinny, but... I don't know. I guess because I've always been overweight. Like, yeah, you're skinny, but if you're a bitch, then you're just a bitch. That's true. Now you're just a skinny bitch. Now if you have the face card and you're skinny, then it's like, okay, you could be...

Yeah, you know, you like have the good body. I think you have one or the other. Yeah, that's true. If you have them all, you're a bitch. Then you could be a bitch. Right. Then you can be mean and get away with stuff. Then I get it. I get it. I feel like that's very like Ariana. Like I'm a big Ariana stan and I kind of just forgive everything. You know, I'm just like, well, she's beautiful. So it's fine. She's beautiful. She's skinny. So she could be a bitch. She could spit on another donut in front of me. I don't care. Totally. Yeah. Oh, yeah. I was like, I don't care.

mind that eat that like donut she's so beautiful you know what i mean so i think when you get away with that you're just so skinny and beautiful and stuff like that i don't know but it's the world we live in i guess i don't know i guess that i know i love it i think it's so interesting it's interesting that you are collabing with all these people i think that's like amazing i live for collabs for a while okay so actually the way i met patrick is i was like literally i had like 1 million followers and he hit me up and he was like the first ever beauty big influencer to follow me i was gagged you know wow and he dm'd me he was like hey let's collab

Wow. And I was obviously gagged, but I was like, I kept, I didn't tell him no. I was just like, yes, obviously. Yeah, let's do it. But I pushed it back a lot. You know what I mean? Interesting. Because I wanted to build my own following before I collabed with his. Really? I didn't want people to be like, oh, I know him from Patrick or like,

Oh, like Patrick made him or like, oh, he got Patrick. Give him that kickstart. You know? No, I gave myself that kickstart. I'm here because of me. You know what I mean? Interesting. That's so interesting. I never mind being known from a collab. So for a while I was like, I'm not going to do collabs. I don't like collabs. Like I don't want to feed off of other people's like followers. I want to build my own. You know what I mean? If you know me, it's because you know me, not because from somebody else, you know? But recently I think it was kind of fun. They have to like, you know what I mean? Recently it's been fun. I like collabing now. It's fun.

I love it. That's why I love like finding all these like young people on TikTok and stuff like that. Cause it's just this whole new world generation followers. It's like fascinating to me. Yeah. And I think it's so cool cause I used to love collabs, watching collabs when I was younger. So I'm like, imagine these people now watching like two worlds collide. Like that's so fun, you know? It's so fun. Yeah. When you're talking about like the Joey and stuff, it's like, it's so funny cause it's like, oh, it's like these two worlds colliding. Really? Yeah. I feel like when you watch, like when I watched you with like Michaela, I'm like, this is a weird crossover cause she's like in the East coast and you're like here and it just, it

Also, I think of you guys as totally separate. So it's like weird to see you guys together. But we're both in the beauty. But you know, I don't even see her as a beauty influencer. I know she is. But to me, she's like a personality. To me, you're a personality too. I don't watch you for the makeup because I don't know how to do makeup. But I watch you. A lot of people comment that. They'll be like, I don't even do makeup. I don't even like makeup. But I watch you because you're so. People will tell you. Because they'll be like, wait, why is he on? Because I always say I don't get the beauty world. I don't get beauty influencers because I just don't like it. But I like your personalities. And same thing with Mikaela. She has like that personality. So I follow for that.

But then there's people like Alex Earl I follow because she's pretty. Like she does makeup and I just follow her. I'm just like, I just want to see what you eat at Air One, you know? I love at Air One. I was in my Air One phase because of her. I saw that you're trying Air One. What did you think about it? Because they just recently tried Air One. For the first time? Yeah. It was my second time, their first time. I was obsessed with it. I was eating it all the time. I don't know.

I think I liked it. It feels healthy, right? Like it's like healthy. I don't know. But then there was like that cauliflower with all the sauce on it. Like the buffalo cauliflower. We love that. That was our favorite thing. It's so good. But like is it healthy? It's cauliflower with seasoning. I'm pretty sure it's healthy. Oh, really? Yeah. Buffalo sauce is zero calories. Wait, really? Well, it depends on what buffalo sauce they use. But buffalo sauce is zero calories. I love buffalo sauce. It did taste. I love it. I love that. I was getting that all the time. And it was always sold out every time I went. Oh, the zero calorie buffalo sauce. Oh, yeah. The buffalo sauce. I love for a zero calorie like item. I'm just like. Oh.

You would love the 90s. Okay, well, that's another reason why I think I'm so skinny is because of my diet. You know how I said I'm lactose intolerant and fruit's intolerant? Yeah. Like, when I say lactose intolerant, it's not like people are like, oh, I'm lactose intolerant, but I'm going to have some cheese. No, like, I'm actually like 100% lactose intolerant. No milk, no cheese. But yeah, like, I get constipated from it, so I cannot eat it.

Oh, man. So it's like completely anything. I will read the ingredients of everything. And I'm not looking at the calories, okay? I'm looking at if it has dairy. If it has dairy, throw it out. I can't have it. Wow, you're so lucky. You don't have people with peanut allergies like severe. Think of it that way. It's like, I can't have dairy. Oh, I eat so much cheese. I eat like pizza. You ate cheese before you came in here. Oh, I smell like cheese. And I never eat. No, you don't smell like cheese just because you said it earlier. You were like, oh, I just mentioned cheese. I'm that weird kid that smells like cheese. I was just like, I never do. But we were like, because pizza.

again, my photographer was waiting. He's like, I'm going to go get Trader Joe's and get a charcuterie. I never eat charcuterie. He'll tell you. And I was like, all right, let's try some of this cheese. And like, I didn't even know you came into the gate. And I was like, he's here. I was like, oh my God. No, we were like admiring your house. And we're like, where is she? No, we were like, we're usually ready. He usually comes out and greets people like all this stuff like that. We were just sitting here eating like cheese and chocolate on crackers. No, I live for that. It was on the,

Whatever. But I love cheese pizza. I love mac and cheese. So you don't eat that. I love pizza. I just get it without the cheese. That's the thing. What? I still eat. People ask me whenever I tell them about my diet. They're like, well, then what do you eat? Air and ice? No. I just tweak the items that I eat. I can still order a pizza, just light on the sauce and no cheese. What? But I will load it up with all the other toppings. Send me a picture of your pizza next time. That's wild. No cheese. It's literally just red. I get pepperoni.

Oh.

I can't. I'm glad I didn't smell like it then when I came in. I felt it. I felt it because I never eat it and I felt like it. Do you like soda? I love soda, but I cut it out. I've cut it out in the past year because it's like so toxic. Like I love diet soda. I don't drink any soda, but you know what I do drink that's kind of bad? Probably because of the red dye. I drink like sugar-free cranberry juice. That's my drink. Sugar-free. Do you get the ocean spray? Is it ocean spray? I don't know. Or is it in the plastic bottle? It's like a little bottle. It's like a, you know. I love cranberry juice too. I love cranberry juice too. And it's sugar-free and it's like five calories.

No, it's just a bonus. I'm not saying I count the calories. It's just a bonus. I think it's good for yeast infections, too. You get rid of those things. Oh, yeah. And that's why I used to drink it. I was like, oh, it gets rid of it. Like UTIs or something. Literally a period. And this person came out with a sugar-free pink lemonade I saw. So I was like, what?

Oh, yeah. They have that at In-N-Out. They have a sugar-free one. But sometimes sugar-free might be chemicals in it, too. I don't know. I get a little weird about it. People say that, but then whenever they tell me that, like, oh, well, they're using other chemicals, it's like, babe, you drink Coke, like Coca-Cola. Right. Imagine what's in there. Have you not seen the videos of them melting Coca-Cola? You're telling me because I drink... Yeah. Oh, my God. Yeah. Soda, to me, scares me in general, so I stopped it. Plus, I gained so much weight from soda. So I really do just drink water. I went to the play. I got water. I just like water. I drink water all the time that I'm so over water. I hate water. Okay. Well, you can have a just Trish water if you want.

Oh my God. We actually know. I take it with you. No, I'm taking one home. So you got this made. Yeah. Oh my God. Yeah. You know, we're professional here.

Just Trish. Oh, you should have put zero calories in like big, like really huge. Skinny water. Skinny water. No, that would have been Trish Skinny Water. That's a good name. You should have done that. I love anything with skinny in it, like Skinny Legend, Skinny Water. You know, this is so stupid, but like I always think about like brands that I want to come out with. Uh-huh. Probably like not good, but I always thought because of my diet and because I was like, maybe there's people out there that have like very, a lot of diet restrictions. Yeah. I wanted to come out with something like sugar-free, dairy-free, you know what I mean? Uh-huh. Uh,

brand like that. They can still snack on the fun stuff, but it's obviously, you know, healthier. And I wanted it to be called Skinny. Skinny is good. Nowadays, you know how bitches are. Yeah. Actually, after this video, I'm going to trademark that because I don't want anybody to like, yeah. What if it's Skinny Margarita? Like, that's right, a whole thing Bethany Frank called. Oh, true, true. Okay, okay. I think it should be called I.B. Skinny, so it's like I.B.S. I know. No, that is so good. You trademarked it before me. I know.

I'll give it to you. It's not trademarked by Trish. It's not give it to you. That's yours. Because honestly, I think that would be like so... Because that's like for IBS people. Yeah, that would be. I'd be skinny. But then, you know how people are. They can be like, why are you trying to be skinny for me? It's like skinny legend. It's a state of mind. True, skinny legend. I always say that. I'm like skinny, you know, state of mind. Yeah. Let's talk about your prom. I knew... Why did I know you were going to come up with that? First off, I'm a huge Brian Hearns fan and I was like...

I think I DM'd him so many times. Again, left me on read. I was like, I would love a custom Brian Hearns. How did that happen? Okay, I'll tell him. I think he did DM me for the first time yesterday. Yeah, period. But I don't know how. We love Brian Hearns. Okay, so you had this great red outfit, which I wanted to cosplay it, but I didn't have enough time. Please. No, you shut up. Oh, man. I was trying to find. You still have time. No, the person who makes my outfit

outfits was just like I can't make that like he's like it's so complicated then I was just like yeah I know complicated it was complicated there was like is it layers or is it one it was yo it was layers yeah it was layers it was like the pants it was actually the bodysuit diamond thingy on the bottom the jewels and then it was the pants over it and then it was like that corset top

Then the corset top, then the pants over it because the corset top was like a body suit. Oh, how did you go to the bathroom? I didn't. Oh my gosh. Skims has like the opening now. You can like open it. Oh, I saw that. It was just like at the bottom. Because remember Kim was talking about how you can put like a hole in there, you know, to make it easy to go because it is a nightmare. Okay, so back to the bright hair and things. So you got it just for prom, but you wore it to an event too. So did you have the event first? So I got it for prom, but I was like, this was so expensive and it was like, prom was like boring. You know, prom is boring, you know? Was this in Visalia, your prom? This was in Visalia, yeah. No one's seeing it there yet.

Yeah, exactly. So I was like, let me wear it to this red carpet. Like, why not? So I did. I wore it to this like TikTok event. The only reason I went, because I usually don't go to TikTok events because they invite like everybody.

every single TikTok. And you don't love it. I don't love it. You know what I mean? And, but Patrick was like, it's going to be big. It's going to be big. I promise he's going to be big. So I'm like, okay, if Patrick's going to be big, then it's going to be big. Daddy's images was there. There was a red carpet. He told me to, he was like, girl, wear something good. And he told me, wear that prom outfit if that's all you have. And I was like, if that's all you have, custom Brian Hearns. Well, he was like, if that's all you have, that's like dramatic and huge. And at the time, that was all I had. That was custom. You know what I mean? Now I have so many customs, but like, you know. But,

He literally told me it was going to be big and stuff. And then I was like, is this not too dramatic? Like, come on now. You know, it's just a TikTok event. I went and it was so dramatic. It was like a huge red carpet. It was like Getty's images. That was my first Getty Images photo. Wow. It looked amazing. Every big TikToker was there.

And do you mingle with them? Will you go up to them and talk? I'm too shy to. Okay. What? I'm very like in my groove, you know? Okay. But if they come up to me, then I'll kick it off with them. Okay. And you're always nice. You don't bully anymore. No, I can't. No, no. You're not. I'm a very nice person. Okay, okay. That's the one thing. I'm like very mean, but I will be mean if you're mean to me. That is, I will tell you that. Okay, that's normal. Don't try with me because I am going to snap back. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm going to snap back. It's like, I will say the worst shit ever. Yeah, no, I was the same way. My mouth was awful.

awful okay yeah yeah because it's like yeah when you're very very nice i think it's very hard for me to get that to that point it's like a whole different persona they have to say something mean to you or your friends i know you do oh of course i used to get in trouble for say i don't know i used to have like maybe a dozen 12 13 i used to say i had multiple personality disorder and people got mad at me but i really do think i had that at one point i think they subdued a little bit i have three personalities but i say that because not because it's like oh i'm diagnosed no i just say because it's like it's different it's like i would never do what that person did or like they'll show me a video and i'm like

That's not me. Yeah. And I'll be like, look at those eyes. That is not me in there. Like, you know. That's happened to me for sure. Yeah. When I've like gone off on people, I'm like, I don't even know. And sometimes I know it's happening. And I'm like, that's not me. Oh, that's interesting. And oh, so you really actually think you like disassociate sometimes where it's like not you. Oh, of course. Yeah. Even when I'm like. That's interesting. In my like videos, it's like, that's Doss Mendoza. Wow. Do you think you turn it on? Do you, can you control it? Okay. The times I do see Doss is I'm like, get ready with me. That's interesting.

That's me. Okay. But you're very similar to your TikToks now. I don't know if you noticed, but I am very now. Or is this TikTok-ed out? There's a

There's a multiple you here. Oh, no, there's a Dallas. Okay, there's a few that come through. No, but I think, yeah, but there's also like a very goofy side of me that nobody ever sees besides like her. Yeah, very goofy, weird side, nerdy side, yeah. Oh, a nerdy side. Nobody will ever see that ever unless it's like you've been in my life forever. Oh my gosh. Oh, I love it. The way I see it is that's Dallas. That's like really me. That's really who you are. I'm like kind of childish almost. Oh, I love that. Which is so crazy because I'm so mature. Mature, yeah. But

But that's all the sides of you, which I think, that's what I'm saying. I feel like I see a lot of those sides. I like to separate them. Yeah. I don't like, no, it feels crazy. And also when I go out and I'm crazy and I'm this, I call that somebody else. Do you have names? Okay, what's your- So the crazy one going out, that's like bitchy, debilas.

What is it? Which is also my middle name. De Vilas? De Vilas. De Vilas? De Vilas. I like that. What does that mean? Anything? No. De Vilas. De Vilas. So your name is Douse De Vilas Mendoza. Yes. I love it. Exactly. Okay. And then the other one is obviously Douse Mendoza. That's what they see all the time online. And then, you know, Douse. They'll see me over here and there. Just straight up Douse. I love it. Does anyone call you, have any nicknames for you? There's Dousey. Okay.

All my friends say that's dowsy. It's like mousy. I like it. That was the next one. I used to be called Douse the Mouse. Remember how I said I was fat? Oh. Douse the Mouse. I would eat all the time. Wait. Mices aren't fat. They're tiny. Unless you're like Gus Gus from Cinderella. Well, they call me Douse the Mouse because I was always in the kitchen. Oh, the food. The pantry. The food. The pantry. I was always eating. We get a mouse in our pantry. Yeah. Oh, yeah. But I was the mouse. Oh, you were the mouse. Okay. I was up in the middle of the night eating food. Did you ever see a mouse in there with you? No. No. I'm the mouse. They were like nicknaming me. They're.

I don't think they need to off the mouse because you're like a mouse eating a knife. But if you have a mouse, you would see other mice in there eating too. No. Well, one time, honestly, yeah. Yeah. I love a mouse for sure. I used to have hamster. Oh. No, I don't love hamsters. Gerbils and all that. Oh. But you just said you love a mouse. But they're not hamsters. I don't like rats. I like mice. I don't like gerbils. I like a mouse. They're cute. Oh, okay. Mouses are sweet. Rats are good. You've had one in your hand? A mouse? Yeah. I have one in my house.

Oh. Yeah, he comes in because we... Do you, like, beat him and stuff? Like, if you're Cinderella? Not on purpose, but we, like, let him go, but he comes back in. I feel like we need to... What if you just make a little home for him somewhere? I mean, if he's sweet. He makes a home for himself. He comes through the little walls and makes a home. This is his home, though, yeah. I know. We just have to, like, shoo him out before he sees my baby and stuff, but I like mice. I think, like, people are a little too hard on them. They capture them. They kill them, you know? I killed him with a broom one time, but it wasn't me. I just watched it happen.

Was that your personality? Another one? No, no, no. It was like my oldest brother's baby mama. She did it? Yeah, it was running around everywhere. I was like, you're killing it, not me. She was all scared. I'm all like this big kid. She's like, you kill it. I'm like, bitch, you go. So you're a T.O.?

Who? Tio, is that what it's called? Oh yeah, my Tio. Yeah, I have a niece. Are you, do you like kids? Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Are you good with them? Like how can you like? Oh no, I'm good with kids, yes. But I don't, I don't like the messy crazy kids. Are they messy crazy? Your niece? No, my niece is very, I love her because she's so together. She's sweet. Okay. The messy crazy. I don't really like other people's. You know like the babies that I have like, like.

crazy. I call those travesuros. What is that? Travesuros, like little crazy kids. Travesuros. Did you make it up or is that Spanish? No, that's fine. They say travesuros, like stop being travesuros. Oh, I love that. They're like throwing stuff everywhere and picking up stuff and those kids, I'm like, oh my God, control your child. Yeah, they're wild. Because you said you had a big family, like extended family. Yeah, and there's, oh my God, some of those, yeah, some of my tias have those kids and I'm just like, girl. I like that. I will literally be in the family Thanksgiving or something and I'm just like,

Did you have like an I've made it moment where you're like, okay, this, I finally made it. You haven't had one of those yet where you're like your apartment, your walk-in closet? Oh, well, of course. I'm like, okay, I made this goal. On to the next. Okay. Yeah. But you haven't like, is there. But I'm not at the point where I'm like, yes, I made it. I'm at the top. Really? No, not even near. You're definitely. Okay.

Okay, well, that's good. So that means you're aiming to go even higher. Like you have a trajectory. I think that's amazing. Because to me, I think you're like at, I wouldn't say a peak because I don't think you're going to go down, but you're just at such a high right now. So I would think for you, like, how do you stay humble? Like, do you have someone that like humbles you, like keeps you grounded? I think. You just are. Yeah. I don't, I don't know. Yeah. You don't let it get to you. It's real. Like what, what am I?

gonna not be humble about like you know but i think also what it is the followers yeah but i think also what is as i was so i was at such a low point you know what i mean that it's like i understand what that feels like yeah the struggle but then also i've met other people that were at a low point to the struggle and they're so like catty and just rude and disgusting and it's like how can you be like that when you like been through the struggle you know what i mean that's interesting i would always assume they just didn't struggle at all so they just don't know what they have but they're yeah i that's what i'm saying some people just get the

fame and the following and they forget what it's like to have to work at McDonald's or something like that. And that's also why I'm such hardworking because I don't want to go to where I was before, you know? Yeah. No, definitely. That's how I am with like money. I'll do anything even for a hundred bucks because I'm just like, well, it was hard to make, you know? I stopped that though. I did because it was getting too many brand deals. For a while I was, I was like, just give me any brand deal. I don't care. Oh, like a hundred dollars. Yeah. Oh,

for sure, like pick and choose. But now I'm just like, okay, I think I have so much of an impact on like what people buy. I'm going to only give them what's good. Yeah. You know? No, that's smart. And if you're getting all these brand deals, it's definitely smart. I think people trust me. I don't want to lose that trust.

that's what it is. So smart. So there's been a few times, I've said no to a lot of money just because I didn't like the product or I didn't like the brand. Or also there was a time where like the brand was just being weird and I didn't even like the product that much. So I was like, you know what, tell them no. Wow, that's good. Like cut that contract, rip it, I don't care. Like I'm not doing that video. If it's something I think my followers won't like, then you know.

That's amazing to turn down money. I know recently an influencer came out and was like, this was the ugliest thing ever. I can't believe you guys bought it. I was like, why would you say that? You sold this huge pallet. And he was like, this is so ugly. Tell people you did that. Which is sad because I consider myself to be authentic too. I would never take something that I think is bad or something like that. I think I wouldn't talk down on something because the way I would see it is it was an era. Enjoy that. You know what I mean? Exactly. Be happy that that happened. Right. That's true. Be grateful for it. Be grateful. Literally, be grateful for that. But then again, it's people that...

They were never at a low point. They always were just, you know, nipple baby vibes, like just everything. You know, big old metal spoon, just fed it to them. That's true. With the influencer now, like you can be an influencer at any age and you just like, it is such easy, not easy, but you can make so much money easily as opposed to like working minimum wage and stuff. It's kind of sad because like more than doctors is insane. Like a doctor that went to, that's why I think college is such a like scam. Oh my God, Emma Chamberlain vibes, we're going to get canceled. She said that on her podcast.

and everyone was so mad. Oh, they were? No, no, no. I'm all scared now. It's your personal opinion intake. I want to hear it. Yeah, I think, you know, if you want to do it, do it. But I think it's a scam because it's unfair that we get paid this much and doctors that are saving lives are not getting paid. I feel like they should be getting paid more than us. Totally. I think that's like a... That's what I think. Totally. But not like pay us less. No, pay them more kind of vibe, you know? I agree. I didn't say that about fast food workers. I think doctors should... Oh. When I go through McDonald's, I was like...

I was like, they need to get triple the pay because they're just so happy every time I go through. They're like so upbeat. They're so happy. I need to go to whatever McDonald's you're going to because mine is like, they spit in my food. No, they do not spit in your food. But it's always the managers that are like short and stubby and they're like,

Oh, the short stuff, you love me. Maybe that's my audience because they love me there. They're always just like, hey, they give me like t-shirts. They don't even know who I am and they'll just give me like t-shirts and stuff like that. Can I have one, please? Yes. I only have one left. The other one I cut up because I was so weird and I wanted to make it a crop top and I thought it was going to be cute, but it's not. That's a vibe. I love like a McDonald's crop top. I should wear that McDonald's crop top now, right? I love McDonald's everything. I can make it work. I love, no, the shirt, I swear I will go back and I will get hired again just to get more shirts and be like, hey, bye. I love that you have

Because they don't wear t-shirts that are. They wear collars, but they give me t-shirts. Like, they'll have, like, t-shirts in there and they'll give them to me. What t-shirt do you have? Is it blue? It's, like, a black and it has, like, a... Actually, it's a Malibu one. It's around McDonald's surfing. Oh.

Oh, no. I have the working cheapy ones. Oh, I wish I could get the crew shirts or something like that. Those are the ones I want. That's why I have the crew. Maybe they're on eBay. That's where I find my advisors and stuff. Yeah. I'm going to check there. They're going to put the prices up just because we're saying this. I love McDonald's. I think fast food employees should get paid way more. Because also it's a good job and they're just so upbeat and happy and I'm just like, oh, God, they really should get paid more because these people can be a lot. It's fun. It's fun. I was upbeat and happy. I had fun. But I agree. Doctors should get paid more. I think teachers should get paid more. I think all of that. Definitely. When I find out how much teachers get paid, I'm like,

No, that is sad. And that's like the thing I've had like obviously backstories with my teachers, but like there's teachers out there that are like really great helping shape kids' lives. And I also don't like the way they get paid. Did you know how they get paid? No. So at least in high school, because one of the, I was so close to one of the teachers, she told me if a student is absent, they get paid less. What? Per student? Per student.

I don't know how it works, but she said if there's students missing, like, the school gets... That school gets paid less. So then they get paid less. Their paycheck is lower. Oh, my God. That's such a scam. And I'm just like, wow. Like, this is why you guys have that senior attendance and all this big... And you guys are so dramatic when we're tardy and stuff like that. But it's like they're doing it on themselves. You know? Like, they're giving us, like, oh, three tardy slips equals one absence. Well, bitch, you're doing that to yourself. I'm going to be tardy, you know? That's true. They just shouldn't count you as tardy. They should be keesier. I think that's what a lot of teachers are, like, very cool about it. They're just like, oh, you're not tardy. Like, you're...

Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're fine. You're actually here. Yeah, no, you've been here the whole time. Yeah, I didn't know that. No, that is sad. It's so sad. Just in general, I think everything... Even the elementary teachers...

Yeah, because they're like really with the kids. That's also kind of a daycare too. There's a lot of parents that like, you know, they work and stuff like that. Yeah, and some kids don't like, they, you know, pee their pants and stuff like that because they can't go to like the bathroom. And the teachers have to help them. Oh, yeah. I piss myself when I'm in front of a teacher. She didn't let me go to the bathroom, so I just pissed right there in front of her. Oh, that's happened to me multiple times. Our teachers wouldn't let us go. I would have to go. I hate that. No, that's crazy. Especially because me being young has so many stomach problems. Oh. Oh.

Oh, right. I remember we were reading in a little circle and I tell the teacher and she wasn't even my teacher. She was just like an SSR teacher. Like we would go into the separate. It was for like the kids that were better at reading. Right. Obviously not anymore. I completely lost that good reading. Oh, really? Yeah. I don't know why. Being in school makes you dumber. I don't know why. I'm a great reader. So we were in that little group and I told her, hey, like I have to pee. And she's like, can you wait till after? And I was like, okay, sure. And then later on, I'm like, hey, I have to pee. And she's like, no, you need to wait.

I was like, I need to pee. That's wild to me. And she was like, no. I got up and I swear I stared her right in the eye and I peed. And I was wearing shorts and the pee was, I remember just looking at the pee trickling down my legs. What did she do? Were you like slave? That's what happened? I was like, mop it up, you know? No, no. She was just like, oh my God, go, go, go. I was like, now you let me go. So I ran to the bathroom and I was just like,

I'm going to tell my daughter, just leave if you have to go to the bathroom. That's wild to say no. My mom told me that after a while. She told me, if that ever happens, just leave. Just leave the classroom. Yeah, that's crazy. It's scary. Oh, I was terrified. That's why I peed myself so many times. If they said no, I was like, okay. That's why I would get in trouble also, too, because I got to the point where I was like, if you're going to be a bitch to me, I'm going to be a bitch back to you. And they would just say, oh, he's the one with the loud mouth. You don't want him in your class. He has a big mouth. And it's not that I have a big mouth. It's that if you talk to me, I'm going to talk back to you. Even as a kid, yeah. Even as a kid, yeah. And you are so captivating. You're polarizing. Oh, thank you.

I love how you're unproblematic, but you have a little problematic in you, which I love too. Yeah, she's very, you know. I wouldn't even say problematic. You're exciting. Yeah. Yeah, I don't think it's problematic. It sounds bad. Because I don't do anything bad. No. That's like, oh my God, you're handsome. No, no, no. You're very. I'm not dumb either. Like, I don't do stupid things like that. You're smart. Yeah, you have a good head on your shoulders. You know, like. I'm human. Yeah, you're human. I love it. When I texted you yesterday, you're like, I'm a very open book. Like, ask me anything. And I love people like that, especially because you do have such a great online persona, but you can also be real. Yeah.

I love when you open up about like, like I said, I saw that one TikTok about your personal life and I'm like, that's very inspiring. I think to so many people. My mom told me that. She was like, she was like, you have like a very like amazing story. She was like, there's probably kids out there that go through the same thing that you do. She was like,

you know, maybe they'll let's just see it. And I, it really took a lot for me to make that video. Cause I was like, yo crying on camera. That's so embarrassing. No, but it's so, it makes you so real because you do have such a perfect persona and you look so perfect. Cause I was still in school. Yeah. And I heard like, like my mom was, um, friends with this other mom that had a daughter that goes to that school. And her daughter told her mom, her mom told my mom, my mom told me that they now that they like that the daughter was like, wow, like I didn't know Dallas was like that. They were like, no wonder he's such a bitch. I was like, Oh,

It gets people to understand you better but also just appreciate how much you've done on your own. You know what I mean? The fact that you came, I would never know like lower class and all this stuff like that. Your dad in and out of your life, like I would have no idea. Like that lower class. And that's, so to see that growth in such a quick amount of time, it's my,

that anyone could like literally anyone can do it you know literally say all the time like if you it's it's not even about like if you really want to do it you can yeah but you really want to have you you need to have that passion for it or else it's not gonna passion and believing in yourself truly because like yeah no one else will believe in you the way you believe in yourself exactly that's what i always think of yeah and you you're proof of it i mean the fact that you're with uta and all these management companies and which is kind of insane because every time i tell somebody uta they're like

Like you have to get like a referral from like an already established person. Like it's so hard. And I've been here for so long and I remember I write letters to them and it's amazing. Everything that you've accomplished is like crazy. So I just see it going bigger and better and I can't wait to see. I can't wait to see you acting. I can't wait to see you in a Marvel. Like that's going to be. Yeah, I agree.

Skims campaign. I see that for sure. Skims, Prada, Mar... I really do. And I'm so excited and honored that you are here because you're like, you're so fresh. You're so successful, but still so fresh. And I'm just like so honored to like see the beginning of this. Just like you love Bretman Rocks. Someone's going to see this and be like, I want to be like this person. You know, I'm coming from the same background. I'm sharing a room with my mom and brothers and...

One day, too, you could be Taos Mendoza. Or one of his personalities. Yeah. Or just be you, too. Or one, yeah. And maybe one day they'll meet De Vilas. They've never seen, I've never seen De Vilas. Is that the mean one? Yeah. Is he villain? Not really mean. No, not villain. He's just very, like, out there. Like, he, yeah. Yeah. No, I wouldn't say villain. He's not villain. He's just very, he wouldn't do what I do. Yeah. He's just...

- Wild. - Wild, yeah. - We love it. I love all the Douses. I love Douse Mendoza. I love you, Luz. I love Dousey. I love Dousey Moussey and all of it. - All of them, yes. - You can find Douse Mendoza. He is on TikTok. He is everywhere and he'll probably be all over your TV soon. Congratulations on everything and thank you so much for being here. - Thank you so much. - And I'm so sorry for the mix up. You're such a sweet person. - Thank you for having me here. This is the main time. - Yay, say hi to Kayla. Say hi to Kayla. - Oh my God, yes, I will. - All right guys, thanks for watching and we'll see you in the next one. Bye.