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It's Sophia Franklin. You are listening to Sophia with an F. And the F is for phenomenal. This podcast is rated F.
oh what's the night got my lips tatted right here it's funny though because any girl he get with is that like that's gonna be right there all right yeah that's what i always think about too he got my name sophia big right next to his penis you must got that fire
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Hey party people, welcome to Sophia with an F. I'm recording with the sexiest bitch ever. Oh, Vicky, is that your Instagram?
I'm whoa Vicky. Oh, whoa Vicky. I'm recording with Vicky. Do you go by Vicky or Victoria? Either one you want to call me. Either way. Basically, I reached out and she responded and she was like, yeah, I'm on my way. Let's record. And I was like, wait, you're on your way? Like, we're just fucking going? Period. So...
So this was basically just came together very, very last minute. And I'm very excited to have you here. Thank you so much for coming, by the way. Thank you for having me. Thank you. So I have so much shit that I want to ask you, but I went down like a rabbit hole, just all things Woe Vicky. And I'm sure a lot of people know exactly who you are and are really familiar with you. And then some people who don't. And it's I want you to tell me kind of like,
where you came from and how you became so famous by the way we sat down and the person that was recording before us went up to vicky and he said i recognize you yeah no i say yeah yeah he said i recognize you can i get your number and he didn't say shit to me by the way but he said something to vicky
yeah he was like i know who that bitch is who's recording but i know who this one is so where did it all start like i just went viral on the internet making just my videos was going viral um because of the way i talk what do you mean by that the way i talk they think it was a fake accent oh they people thought it was fake and what would you tell them to fuck off
Yeah, just kept making more videos. Uh-huh. And it just kept going viral. Okay, so that's extremely interesting. So you were just making videos but minding your own business, just speaking the way you speak. Mm-hmm. Correct? Mm-hmm. And what would you say to the people that were hating on you? Like, did it get to you mentally? For a while, I didn't care about it at all because, like, unless you say it to my face, it's a different story. Mm.
You know, and I've had very few interactions like that. I was going to say at one point, like it did get to me, like, because I feel like the whole world hated me that I thought I was racist.
so right so I had deleted my Instagram for a little bit not deleted I just deleted everything off of it okay so let's let's talk about that so you were you got in a lot of trouble because of saying the n-word correct yeah that's funny because I was just talking to my brother on the phone about this because I just got back from Egypt right and in Egypt
They have people of all colors, my color, your color, her color, his color. Right. But they all consider themselves Egyptians. They don't say, oh, I'm white. He black. She black. They don't say none of that. Right. They just call themselves all Egyptians. And they actually use that word out there to greet each other.
the word the n word they use that word okay so when and it was funny because like the Egyptians that was like my color was like saying that word and it and out there like wasn't seen as a negative thing no it's no problem interesting did you feel like you've taken accountability for it or do you feel like oh yeah so when I was in high school all I had was black friends
And I used to say the word around them all the time and they didn't mind. They didn't care. So I think I'd say that in one of the videos. And then everybody was like, you know, getting mad at me. Oh, she's racist. She's racist. And they told me, just tell them you're black. Tell them you're mixed.
So then I did that. And then, you know, I was only 17. I was a kid. And I'm like, whatever goes viral. Right, right, right. I just took it as a joke. Of course. Yeah. And you were 17. So now that you're older, you would be more cautious. I just didn't know it was going to be like that. So then you said that. And then people, what, came after you saying...
- No, you're not? - Yeah, they started looking up my parents and stuff. - Oh shit, okay. And then did they go after your parents or no?
Probably a little bit. But they couldn't get in touch with them, right? I think some people did start blowing up my dad's email. His email? They found it? Yeah, one little time. Okay. I took that word out of my vocabulary after I seen how the whole world affects the whole world. I see the importance of it. Yeah, that's good. And I feel like you've taken a lot of words. You won't even swear. No.
Oh, yeah, yeah. I stopped kissing. Which I DMed Vicky and I said, LFG. And she responded and she said, I don't know what LFG means, but yeah, like, sure, let's record. Yeah.
Yeah, I even looked it up. Yeah, and I said, it means let's fucking go. And then Vicky just used it and she said, let's freaking go. And so that's where I'm like, okay, you must not swear, right? Yeah. You don't at all. Because you've kind of turned this whole new leaf where you have found God. I mean. Tell me a little bit about that.
Tell me a little bit about that and where that came from. Well, actually, people don't know. Even back then when I was viral, I've been loved Jesus, been loved God. Just certain things I didn't know. Yeah. But I didn't grow up in a church or nothing like that. My mama is alcoholic, and my dad, he is...
Basically alcoholic too, but he's a functioning alcoholic. And I just used to see him with a bunch of different women all the time. And then I would be alone a lot. Because I lived with my mom until I was six. And then I moved in with my dad.
And then he would like be out all the time. So he would have like somebody to watch me. - Right. - I'd be lonely and bored. So I'd get into trouble, you know, like sneak out. - Yeah. - And I lost my virginity at 13. - Oh wow, that's really young. - Uh huh, and stuff like that. But that's because that's all I knew. That's all I seen, like, you know? - Exactly. - I didn't, I thought like, oh yeah, this normal. This what you supposed to be doing. Like, you know? - You're a product of your environment. - Right, yeah.
So then like ever since he had dated this lady and I had started going to church with her and her family. And then by the time I got my own car, I would always want to go to church by myself at like 16. And I would always ask my dad, do you want to come with me? And he'll be like, no, no, no, I don't want to go.
And then when I was 17 years old and I met that family that made me viral, put me on, they was the only family I knew who parents were still together. And they had seven kids, you know, all around my age. And none of them cuss, none of them swear, none of them have sex outside of marriage. None of them ever tried me on no stuff. And they was all fine. When I tell you like, they fine. Yeah.
Like for real, like they're cute. And even the sisters are beautiful. Like I'm coming from the world. I'm not used to that. And I'm like, oh yeah, I know they got hoes. But nah, you know? Yeah. So wait, so that family, that's like, those were your best friends kind of growing up? That was your family almost? I met them at 17, but I consider them family. They took me in and I lived with them for a year. And I got to experience like,
how a family is when you do things God's way Jesus's way okay and I was like yeah this is fine I'm gonna have a family like this I love that I feel like somewhere along the way because I was when you were 17 but then I feel like somewhere along the way maybe you lost him right that's kind of how you refer to it as okay yeah so like when I moved out from them like we fell out whatever I moved out
You guys had a falling out? Yeah. I just went back to doing things the way I knew how to do them. Right. From like your seeing your mom and your dad and stuff. Just didn't have no guidance or nothing like that. Yeah. And just doing what I'm used to doing. Yeah. And then like, you know, and then it's like, yeah, no, God's way is the only way that works.
Yeah. Well, I'm really happy that you found that. You are going through a breakup or you just had a recent breakup, correct? Yes. Which, by the way, breakups are so fucking hard. Excuse me. Breakups are so freaking hard. And I I'm sorry you're going through that.
I'm sorry you are too. Thank you. Thank you. I've been going through mine a little bit longer, but still. I mean, that shit can take a long time to get over, but I do want to talk about it a little bit. So, John Gabbana. Gabbana? Yeah. John Gabbana. Like Dolce and Gabbana. Yeah, yeah. So, you dated him, a.k.a. Boon Gang. Mm-hmm. And how long did you guys date? Like a year. Yeah.
- Okay, year. - Worst year of my life. - Worst year of your life. So you've been very open. He was very abusive and you've been open about it, which I've been in an abusive relationship before as well. So I totally understand and feel you. And I think it's really important. - For real? - Oh yeah. I think it's really important that you're so open about it 'cause a lot of women are not. - Right. - A lot of women are scared to talk about it. So what was that relationship like with him?
So let me start off by saying like I only got with him because I thought he was a man of God. You know what I'm saying? Yes. Well, I was going to ask like how did you guys meet? Yeah.
Well, we met a long time ago. We did a YouTube video and this was before he got saved. He was flirting with me. I was like, nah, I already know how this is going to go. Like this is not going to go well. Yeah, he's going to be having a bunch of hoes and sheen. Oh, you knew from the day you met him? Like that's before he got saved. Oh, right, right, right. Then when he got saved, he DM'd me again. I'm like, oh yeah, this fine. He loved Jesus and he fine. This my husband. That's what I thought.
That's always how it is. Yeah. Right. So you're like, he found God and he's hot. Check, check, check. Let's go. And then...
you guys got together and was he abusive and when I say abusive that's like that can come in many different forms physical mental emotional obviously all of the above was it was he like that straight off the bat he's a narcissist so um it's like love bombing and then they're a different person in the beginning and they don't act like that once they once they know they have you right well basically once you have sex
So he wasn't like that right off the bat. Right off the bat, he was like loving you and making you feel safe and amazing and wonderful, right? Yeah. And then you guys have sex and then he like takes a turn. Yeah, which like I didn't want to have sex outside of marriage. Okay. And I told him that. But I got to take accountability for that too because if you put yourself in a situation where
our flesh is weak we gonna fail you know what i'm saying so i gotta take a bit for that too but i would say like a man has more persuasion over that like they need it like they need to have sex is that what you're saying no it's like this like a man got more mouth game they're like oh baby i love you like um you know what i'm saying they're more manipulative yeah yeah yeah okay got it got it got it yeah
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So, you don't want to have sex until you're married. Yeah. Now. Yeah. Right? I didn't ever want to. So, you didn't really want to with him, but he was just like a smooth talker. Yeah. And like, okay. I got to take off accountability for that. Of course. Of course. Yeah. And then you guys end up having sex, and then it just kind of was like downhill from there. But do you think it was a sex? No, I think he was going to do that to you regardless. He was going to do that anyways, but if I wouldn't have had a sex with him, I could have been easier to cut him off. Mm.
Because you get attached. You get soul ties, yeah. Yeah. So then what was like the first instance where you were like, wait, this guy's like scary? Or did you not notice until after the relationship like, oh, this guy's really like fucked up and abusive to me? Because for me, I didn't realize how abusive the guy was dating was until after. Like after the relationship when people were like,
so if you what were you yeah because they'd be playing mind games exactly so is that kind of like what it was like in your situation yeah like oh let me say this too when i had left that family at 17 and then when i um for four years i was celibate and i was the happiest i had ever been okay i need to try that it's i was the happiest i have like so happy and i used to tell him that too like in a relationship like but like yeah i didn't realize how
Because it's like he would put it on me like, and he'd be like, like one time he hit me in the face like that, like this. And then his thing was, I didn't slap you. All I did was hit you in the face. That's not even that bad. That's not even nothing. I used to do my other girlfriends way, way worse than that.
so gaslighting yeah like that i hate that right he like tries to make you think you're crazy and he says like you me off right it's on you like it's and it's so crazy like they'll do something so horrible and then you feel bad right you're like oh well i deserved it yeah yeah because he said i always playing best while i was scratching him yeah and they're so manipulative right so beyond
But I feel like the worst part was the mental abuse. Okay. Honestly. Tell me about that. That's really interesting. Which I actually agree with that. But I want to hear from you. Yes. I want to hear you too. I think for me it was the mental was more persistent. And I think that the physical is... I mean, the physical ends up being a little bit mental too. It does. I'll give you an example. Okay.
He had thrown like a... So he cracked my laptop in half and then he threw like a Yankee candle that, you know, they're like this big at my head, but like I dodged it and went through the wall. He rips the door off the door handles, like the fucking Incredible Hulk and like breaks the door in half and
None of those things physically had touched me. That is physical abuse. That's another thing women don't understand. It's like a scare tactic because I thought he was going to kill me. No kill. Right? I remember I ran into the other room and I hid underneath the bed. I locked the door. Dang. And I think that's something women need to understand. But there were like... He did put his hands on me. That's for sure. I think the reason the mental was more is because...
The physical, it's like that pain goes away. Exactly, yeah. It's like it hurts for a second and then it goes away. And something about the mental is it's all like you're confused and you don't really know how to process it. Yeah, what did I do wrong? What did I do wrong? That's why it's such a mind fuck.
Because I was like sitting there and I'm like, well, yeah, but like I kind of like hit him back too. Me too. Yes. That's exactly what I was like. Exactly. Right. And then I remember my mom had to tell me because she worked at the YWCA and worked with women's women in domestic violence. Oh.
And so I spoke to her about it and she said, when you are dealing with a guy and they are so much stronger than you and bigger than you and just more powerful than you, that argument like, oh, well, I did this to them. It doesn't hold up. It is not the same. Dang. It's just not. Yeah, yeah. So why do you think the mental was more? He would ignore me for like eight days. Ooh.
And they hit me up at a number and say, hey, bae, I love you. That's so, yeah. Actions speak louder than words. Right. Right? Now you know that. I think the mental also was the me knowing he was like being shady and cheating. And him just like being like, you are fucking crazy. You have trust issues. Yeah, that's f-ed up. And it's like. They don't give no reassurance. They just say, you crazy. You tripping. Exactly.
Exactly. So, so he wouldn't talk to you for eight days. Then he'd be like, Hey, babe. Hey, babe. I miss you. Love you. And what would you say? Like what? Where have you been? Um, no. Or were you just like, I love you too, babe. I was just like, can you come get me from the airport? Yeah. Yeah. And then when I got in the car, he's like, I threw all your stuff out. Why? Why did he throw it out? He said, cause of a tweet I made.
He threw all your shit out? Yeah. I would have fucking gone crazy. I know, right? And what did you say? You were just like, that's messed up. Did you see yourself marrying him? Like, at first, before all this happened, I did thought we was going to get married. We was going to marital counseling and everything. Mm.
But I'm, thank you, God. Thank you, Jesus Christ. Right. But now you're, you're single. Are you officially single right now? Yeah, I'm single. Single. In his mind though, like he, he might think like, oh no, we still in a relationship. Like he probably think like we're going to get back together. Yeah. Was that like that with you? Like I'll, I'll like break up with him and he'll be like, LOL, LOL, just calm down. Right.
He won't take it serious. Yeah. No, my guy wouldn't do that. But it was the breakup, get back together, breakup, get back together. Like, I swear to God, like 20 times, you know? Yeah. So toxic. So bad. Block each other. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Be calling each other from the star six, seven. Like just so toxic. So bad. Or I said, like, we would call each other till the other person's phone died.
Like, just crazy shit. How long were you in there when they shoot? Ooh, longer than I even would like, probably close to two years. Wow. How long, and how long were you with, uh, what, Jonathan? Ew. Oh, you. Ew.
but John what was I gonna say it's like okay it's like this I was really like losing my mind in that relationship for real yeah and it's like it was like the whole world think like oh yeah like y'all couple goals y'all love God he a man of God this and that and I'm like man it's like something in my head and then like he low key like fooling me too like got me believing it in a way even though I'm going through all this
So I'm like, man, deep down I knew this ain't, but I was so like- - But you don't want to. - It was so obvious. - Yeah. - For real. - Yeah, I think, me too. Deep down I knew that what was happening was not okay, but I just, I didn't either wanna believe it or I thought he would change. - Yeah. - That's a big one. - Right. - Like you think they're gonna change, right? - Yeah. - And they say they're going to a lot of the time.
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So you saw yourself maybe marrying him. Thank God you didn't. Now you're single. Does he still try to reach out?
Um, no, he stopped. Do you think he's going to try to reach out again? I don't have no idea. Only God knows. Yeah. Do you have him blocked? Um, on Instagram? No, on number? Yes. Good. And, um, and when he hit me, um, he, so he hit me in the face and then, and at the time he had choked me up. And then when he had me choked up, he had like,
My man had bruised my nipple a little bit and it had scabbed. But he said, like, he said, I didn't feel bad for that. Put my hands on you. I didn't feel bad for that because what led up to that? Oh, my God.
- I'm so sorry you went through that. - No, it's okay, I'm sorry you went through that. - Well, mine was like years ago. - Yeah, yeah. - Yours is fresh. You just recently went through the breakup. You're gonna come out so much stronger and now you're gonna know what to look for in your next relationship. You know what I mean?
And you're going to find a guy that's like worthy of you. And probably in that moment when he said, you made me do that. Like I didn't feel bad because what led up to. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. And did you kind of believe him or were you shocked that he said something like that?
I don't know. You don't remember. There's always so much shit. You don't know what to believe. You don't know. And that's where I think that's why I think the mental part of abuse is so much worse. Yeah. Because like I would call people and ask them like, is this right? But then I do not know.
Deep down you know. But you don't want to know. And the people around you, what were they telling you? What I really needed somebody was to tell me, like, hey, no, that ain't right. That's what I really wanted. And no one was really telling you that? Yeah, like, what's wrong with y'all? Why y'all ain't telling me that? My brother, he would tell me that, but then I would ask him, so you think I should break up with him? He's like, I can't tell you what to do. And you kind of wish you had someone who was like,
break up with that dude and stay away from him. - Yeah, which when I finally did tell my dad after I broke up with him, he told me to do that. - It's time. - And he used to call me the B word all the time and tell me to get the F out my crib. - Okay, so I was actually just asked this question. Do you think it's ever okay for a guy to use a swear word or like a cuss word at you? Even if he's joking, do you think it's okay?
the answer is no the answer is no period like i don't think a guy should ever say a swear word at a girl ever
have i accidentally done that when i'm really angry with the guy and used a swear word yes which is not okay either but we are we are humans we all make mistakes yeah i'm growing up and i'm learning accountability thank you so you have always been a woman of god amen but you too yes i i am a woman of god yes you i just i needed
high five i just need to work on maybe the swearing the drinking the having sex the fucking it's okay once all of those things can i still be a woman of god if i'm doing those things like he loves you as much as he ever can right now in this moment no matter what you do like it's nothing you can do to make him love you more
Wow. I love that. Even like for somebody that just went out there and killed somebody. He loved him. He still loves them. Yeah. I really, really like, I love that. Because I feel like a lot of people have a completely different perspective on that. Right? They're like, oh, you're not worthy of God's love if you've done this, this, and this. But that's not how it works. No. It is just an undying, unwavering love for you. So you've always been a woman of God. Yeah.
But I feel like you did kind of have this whole social media image. And then you kind of reinvented yourself in a way. Would you agree with that? No, I wouldn't say I regret that. God did. Yeah. Okay. I love that. And now you're very open about being a woman of God and all of those things. And have people given you hate for that? No.
Oh, no, not really. They haven't. And they've just supported your journey. Well,
Well, that's good to hear because I feel like people on the internet will literally hate on you for every single thing that you do. Right. Not a woman of God, a woman, like, you know. Oh, that stuff does get annoying sometimes. I'll be doing that. Yeah. Yeah. For sure. I do have a question just for me. Mm-hmm. Selfish reasons, which I hate your fucking boyfriend, by the way, and I will put your ex-boyfriend and I will say it right here, right now. I hate you. God bless him. God bless him, though, but, like, not a fan. Um...
But so he got famous on like Vine for stealing shit. I mean, it was not Vine. It was after Vine. Oh, okay. Yeah. See, that's how you can tell how fucking old I am, everybody. No, you're young. No. Which, by the way, Vicky did say that I look 21 and not 30. Period. Don't play with her. Don't play with that girl, Sophia. Yeah.
So he would steal shit and film himself doing it. Yeah. Was all this shit he gave you stolen? Or did he pay for it? No, so he did that when he was younger. And then he stopped doing that. And then he got saved. So I thought he changed. Which he did change. I guess for him, the way he changed is probably good. But...
At the same time, nah, I'm like, he cap. But God bless him. Jesus loves him. I guess I love him too. Yeah, I mean, as much as you can, right?
So, oh, you do have this song, by the way, that I just want all of my listeners to listen to. What's your song about the Birkin? The Birkin. That sounds so old. No, but I love it because I just got, I just had a guy give me my first Birkin bag. I see it, look. That's my Kelly. You talking about you single. You just had a guy give you a Birkin. And get my name tattooed. Period. You gonna get his? No. Yeah. Yeah.
I feel you. No. Oh, what's the thing that got my lips tatted right here? Stop. For real. Right here? Yeah, it's no cap. I mean, he got that tatted because he was treating me.
So it's not a flex. No, it's not a flex at all. It's a flex. It's funny though because any girl he get with is that like, that's gonna be right there. That's what I always think about too. He got my name. Sophia. Big? Right next to his penis. Right next to his dick. Huge. This big. Period. I'll show you a picture and you'll die. You must got that fat. You must too. Right if I got you. Baby girl.
Baby girl, we're on that same page. There's a lot of pussy power in this room right now. And he brought you a Birkin? Yeah. Did you go marry him? We'll see. I don't know. Depends how many Birkins. Depends how many Birkins, how many tattoos. All right. Here's the first question.
Hey, Slew, which, by the way, all my listeners are sleuts and they call me Slew. Okay. Hey, Slew. Firstly, I love you. Recently, I've been feeling super low and actually your podcast always makes me feel better. I'm really suffering with overthinking my entire life, feeling like a terrible person even though I know I'm not. Any tips to stop hating on myself? Ooh.
I mean, do you have any advice or do you want me to take it away? I got advice, but you can go first. Okay. Overthinking is my middle name. And I overthink like a mother effer.
I'm trying to like do better like sitting next to you, Vicky. I'm like, okay, we're not going to swear. It's okay. Overthinking is, I have learned as I've gotten older, gets you nowhere. You can overthink yourself into a really, really dark place. And feeling like a terrible person even though you are not...
I feel like I know what Vicky's gonna say. You need to find your relationship with God. Is that what you're gonna say? - Yeah. - I think, yeah, I think there's like some real accuracy with that. And I also think speaking with a therapist. - Oh yeah, therapists do help. - A lot, a lot. I think they can really help. And any tips to stop hating on yourself, do the basic things that make you feel good.
like practicing self-love. There's certain things that'll make you feel better about yourself, you know? Even putting makeup on in the morning. Thanks. I will go like days and days and days without wearing makeup and I'll start to like feel kind of just like gross. It's true. You know what I mean? And then I'll have to get ready for something and then I'm like, okay, like I'm that girl. I'm cute. I'm fine.
I'm fine. I forgot I was that bitch, you know? So sometimes you have to do just little things like that and just force yourself to do them. But always know things are temporary and you will get through whatever darkness you're going through. Save on Cox Internet when you add Cox Mobile and get fiber-powered internet at home and unbeatable 5G reliability on the go. So whether you're playing a game at home or attending one live...
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The backstory before I asked my question is we were friends for a few years. She had done some things that had really hurt my feelings. I texted another person about it and I said some pretty hateful things. That got back to my deceased friend before I had time to calm down and tell her what was bothering me. It really hurt our relationship. Grieving a friend is so hard, but it's even harder being able to look at our last text and seeing our arguments.
That's rough. I'm not holding a grudge, but we had never worked things out and now I'm caught between grieving and self-resentment for not making up with her. I feel so guilty and so sad. I wish I could just grieve the loss and not be torn between two different pains merging together as one. Any advice? Ooh.
I, you know what, my mom taught me and I need to practice this a lot more. But I remember one time we got in a really bad fight. And it was when I was like in middle school, not even high school. And we got in a really bad fight and she had to leave for work. And she said, I love you. I'm leaving for work.
And I was like, bye. Like, you know, I remember my mom looking at me and she said, there's a chance that I could leave for work and not come back today. So you should not stay angry at me like that. And you should just tell people that you love them. Right. So.
That is like something that she taught me. So I think I've kind of carried that with me is to not really let fights or things fester like that and to forgive and to also apologize. However, there are situations where you can't do that, right? I mean, this girl had no idea that her friend was gonna get in a car accident. You can't beat yourself up over that.
Right? What would your advice be to this girl? How... So she's basically asking like... She's trying to get that guiltiness off her conscience. Yeah. But you just have to go to God and tell God like, I'm sorry. And, you know, God forgives you for you already do it. And you tell him you're sorry one time and he forgives you and throws it into the ocean, to the deepest part of the ocean, and then he forgets it. Wow. And sometimes we'd be like...
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, God, I'm sorry. You keep saying sorry, keep saying sorry, but God's like, what you talking about? I forgot that. But yeah, you just got to make peace with God about it because she's already passed away. God bless her, RIP. Ain't nothing else you could do except get right with God about the situation. Yep. I think that's really sound advice. Mm-hmm.
And the grieving thing in terms of how you should grieve, that is different for everybody. - Yeah, that's different. We all handle pain differently. - Exactly. - We all do. - And don't feel pressured to handle it one way or another. Okay, next question. Hi, Sofia. Back when I started dating my last boyfriend, I was so anxious around him, I would throw up. I have been single for almost two years now since him. - What?
I'm like, girl, you would throw up? What do you mean? Where are you throwing up? Like in front of him? Are you running to the bathroom? Like, what are we talking about? I've been single for almost two years now since him, but I'm too scared to date again because I think I'll throw up. What do I do? What advice do you have for girls who are scared of dating? Is this a joke? No.
I don't think it's a joke. So, Vicky, what do you want to tell this girl about throwing up? Just don't date. Don't date nobody. Vicky, are you texting? I love how Vicky's just texting. Just don't date nobody until you can get over that. So, Vicky's advice is just not fucking date until you can get your, like, gag reflex and your, like, your stomach. You don't need to be dating nobody. Yeah.
Let's get your acid reflex and everything under control until you enter the dating game. Girl, if you're getting that anxious that you're having physical symptoms...
you might want to get that checked out by a doctor, but I think the first thing you need to handle is your anxiety, right? I get anxiety all the time. - Really, yeah. - Do you? - Yes. - You deal with anxiety? - Yes. - But how do you deal with it? How do you take care of it? Or do you throw up? - I don't throw up.
No, I don't either. I just pray. You pray? Yeah. I will try to meditate. I will just try to, I'll call a friend. Yeah, yeah. I call people to give me comfort. Yes, call someone that gives you comfort. Like, there's ways to deal with your anxiety. I don't think you need to throw up and run to the toilet. And you're saying to not date? Yeah, she just needs to get out of it.
I think I should do the opposite and just date, date, date and get out of your system. Because sometimes that's what you need to do. If you're scared of something, you have to just do it and do it a lot of times to get over it. Yeah. Well, when God maybe sent her her husband and he like stepped to throw up. Amen. Period. Moving on to the next one. Okay. This is our last question, Vicky. Okay.
Hi there. I lost my virginity very young, so my body count is slightly higher. She's at nine. Okay, so she's had sex with nine people. Okay. I'm in college. That's a high body count? Okay. I'm in college.
in college and feel like I'm made to regret sex especially when I wanted to say no but felt like I couldn't because of slut shaming it really gets to me and I'm terrified of having a reputation or a man rejecting me if they know my history I know it's a bullshit way to shame women but it still hurts what are your thoughts it would be great to hear from you love you
I don't think the amount of men that you have slept with, or women for that matter, matters. Personally. And I think if you're going to date a dude who is going to judge you on your past and how many partners you've had, then they're not the right dude for you. Thanks. Do you agree with that? Yeah. And I think that if you are dealing with a guy who...
Would judge you off of how much childish. Yeah, he's he's immature. He's a boy. He's a little boy So do not let society and like these little bitch boys Make you feel like shit for having sex. It's ridiculous. And I wonder how many fucking people he's had sex with. Hmm Thank you. Okay, Vicky. This was so insightful. I loved having you on um
You actually put a lot of things into perspective with me. Thank you for being so open about your journey and like what you've been through. - Amen. - I really appreciate that. Where can everybody find you? - On Instagram, I'm @woavicky. - I'm @woavicky and on TikTok, right? What are you on TikTok? - I'm @woavicky with two Ys. - With two Ys. - Oh yeah, and I wanna tell that girl, like your past doesn't matter.
Because when you come to God, you be washed and made new by the blood of Jesus. He doesn't remember your past no more. So past don't matter. If he could forget your past, why would you worry about someone who worried about your past? Exactly. Exactly. I love that. Your past is your fucking past. And if you live your life. You can't live in the past. Exactly. If you live your life.
walking around with your past in mind and not gonna have no joy peace exactly ever ever and no one looks back on their past and is like you know what I did that perfectly I have no regrets nobody experience yeah experience in it well so you can have a better life moving forward amen okay we are smart as fuck you
No, you, you. Okay, so it's woevicky on Instagram, on TikTok. Thank you so much for coming on and you know where to find me. So, Fia with an F, Franklin with a Y, and I'll talk to you suits next week.
